Dear All, To start with myself am 40 year old guy married with 4 kids who has been fapping to porn since medieval ages (for as long as I remember age 12 or 14). It is enlightened to me that it is an addiction due to following reasons: 1. I look at porn at office and I got cought at 2 jobs. 2. I look at porn every day several times a day. 3. I am am always looking for deviant & bizarre to get and stay aroused. 4. I prefer to be alone with porn rather than go out with friends often. 5. I feel horny but do not stay aroused/erect for longer periods as with porn compared to non porn encounters (with my wife) These are some of the major indicators that I am addicted to Porn. Now the problems I have which I think and induced by excessive porn (according to the knowledge I gained from internet and my observation) are: 1. Always in irritated/frustrated mood and get annoyed easily. 2. Not able to concentrate on anything for a long time like watching season or doing any thing. 3. Felling horny mentally but no real/hard erections while with women. 4. Morning wood comes very rarely and that too short lived and a weaker. 5. Have strong & prolonged erection with porn but not without it. (PIED) 6. Can ejaculate with semi erect penis or at times kind of flaccid penis while edging to porn. 7. Lack of concentration mostly and lack of interest in most things. 8. Waste a huge amount of time while watching porn (its a no brainer). 9. Low energy levels throughout the day and feeling lazy; and drowsy in morning ever after 8 to 9 hours of sleep. 10. Does not feel Happy (from inside) do not have any purpose and confused as what I want. P.S. I have been doing prone masturbation (Just Stop doing it!); I have a bent Penis and never have had wet dream as long as I remeber. I have struggled to quit P&M multiple times and always relapsed sooner or later with longest period of absenteeism to maybe 2 months. However, this year I had a resolution to quit Porn for good but failed yet again like ever year for the more than a decade! but have decided to try it again starting from 1st November 2019 and write an account of it. I have read a lot about benefits of nofap and also watched many vlogs and on the contrary the notions that nofap is crap and have decided to experiment for myself and share my results with the community here. Thus I will be writing/updating this blog as often as possible and sharing my progress with you guys; thus I need all the encouragement and support of the community and prayers and help so I can change, we can change!