NoFap newbie but long time struggle

I have been struggling with a porn addiction for 2 1/2 years now. I was taught to masterbate at 10 years old. I began using porn at 12. Whatever I could get my hands on. At first it was just lingerie mags, then once we had internet I would print off nude photos and hide them in my closet to masterbate to. It grew and grew from there till I was downloading hard core porn. After 15 years of that I finally realized I had a problem and it has to go. Made it one month with no porn or masterbation and got stuck in a relapse for 5 months. After that I realized it was a real problem and was determined to stop. I went 6 mos without masterbation but would periodically fall into porn. I was raging with fantasies and porn memories back then. I would remember some random porn actress name and he compelled to Google it. I would play this fake, dumb, curios personality that was just curious to see what the name turned up on Google. Then I click images and scroll and scroll till I found more and more risque photos untill I was looking at porn again. I felt sick to my stomach Everytime but still felt compelled to do it each time. I would do this on pinterest, Twitter you name it, sometimes id even find lingerie ads some how on eBay and end finding more and more risque stuff to tease myself with. I'm not sure if I was more attached to the hunt for porn scrolling through photos or the porn itself. After 6 mos of this I masterbate again, and picked my self up and was free from it for another 3 months, then I relapsed hard again and was in a depressed rut for 4 months. Finally pulled out of it and didn't go back for 5 months and did the same thing. After this I was disgusted with myself. I went to SAA some Then I managed to get back up and was free from it totally for 8 months. Then I fell back again twice and here I am now, 1 week with no porn no masterbation really determined to give it up completely. So I joined this site to fill my head with NoFap anytime I get distracted. For me porn and masterbation has been the worst most addicting thing to give up. I have quit a drug addiction, dealt with intense withdrawals and cravings in the past. I have quit ciggaretes in the past too and I can honestly say that porn and masterbation is the hardest. If I had ever wanted relapse on drugs there would have been effort involved. I would have had to source them out go get them, get I. My car go back home. With porn it's right there at the fingertips. With masterbation it's right there in my pants. If anyone doubts how addicting porn is they are very mistaken. All in all I have seen how much I have progressed since my first attempt to drop porn and masterbation and I know it's defeatable. Thanks for reading, don't ever doubt yourself.