NoFap works! But flatline or Recovering Process?

hi guys and girls

i'm 26 years old (single, good job, and not ugly and was watching porn since i can remember. i had several relationships in my life.

my longest relationship was over 5 years long and fantastic.
sex was awesome, but then came porn.
i was watching too much of it, and i lost my desire of sex.
my girlfriend was often sad coz. of my gone libido. (ED appeared)
so after a few months she kissed another guy (drunken) and i broke up with her.
i think my pornaddiction was a massive reason, why i lost her.


luckily i found someone, who was writing about Nofap.
so i tried
after 90 days, but with 3 relapses and still a bit porn (i'm not proud of this) i found a new girlfriend unexpectedly and had some one night stands. It was crazy...i couldn't believe it!.

But then porn caught me again. relationship ended and i was fighting again.
At this time it was clear for me, that porn destroyed all my relationships.


Today i'm on day 33, hardmode, no relapse, no porn, still flatline (i think).

benefits so far:
-old motivation is coming back. (everything have to be clean in my room, haha)
-motivation for 5 workouts per week
-girls attraction is starting (maybe placebo but i can feel more gaze)
-voice is getting deeper
-try to speak clear language
-more aggressive (i transfer this energy into cleaning, workouts and personal projects)
-i can feel (see) people like my friends who are watching too much porn. this problem is unbelievable common in our society, what scares me.

but i'm still in kind of flatline because i feel like a robot with no emotions,... at the same time i can feel this powerful urge if i'm thinking about something sexual.
is this common?....i thought flatline means no sexual desire at all.

i really want to quit this shit called porn, find a girlfriend and
live my life
but i'll carry on.

like
"fairy tales are more than true-
not because they tell us dragons exist.....
..... because they tell us dragons can be beaten."

to that end
have a good time.