A little background on myself. I am 36 years old. I have a 13 year old daughter. Her biological father used to watch porn and then force me to have sex with him. This alone left me feeling unattractive, worthless and every other negative emotion imaginable. I eventually developed bulimia as a result of severe distorted body image linked directly to his actions and addiction. He has been gone from our lives for 10 years. Fast forward to 2017 when I met a wonderful man who was everything I wanted in a partner. He was kind and handsome, hardworking, treated myself and my child like we had always been in his life. In April of 2018 I looked on his phone and found dozens of pages of porn open in his browser tabs. He denied it even though it was right in front of him on the screen. I was finally able to get out of him that his dad, at a very young age, exposed him to this. I should mention at this point that his father beat him, burned him with cigarettes and tried to kill him and his mother multiple times. He was abused in many ways as a child. We talked about this in depth and he swore he was going to stop. He was 42 at the time. So this had been going on for years and years. In the 8 months following he seemed to do well, or it was the fact that I had not picked up his phone. We got engaged this past December and things had been good. He had even deleted his chrome app on his phone. He ended up having to download it again (I cant remember why I needed him to have it but it was at my request for him to download it) and a few days later I picked up his phone and there was a porn video open on it. We got into a fight and he swore at that time that when he downloaded chrome it had opened his old tabs. I'm not an idiot, I know that's not how it works. But I dropped it because I could not handle the fighting over it. I told him then that if I ever found it on his phone again I would be gone. Well guess what, he had to get a new cell phone. Brand new out of the box from the store. I had noticed when he got the new one that he was clinging to BOTH phones for dear life. About two days later he got in the shower and his old phone fell out of his pocket and landed under the bathroom vanity. I waited until he went to work and then took the phone. All of his history had been deleted or so he thought. Yesterday I turned the old phone on because he has been clinging to his new phone, laying it down face down, never letting it leave his hands etc. His old phone and new one have a linked Google account so I can see his history if he hasn't deleted it. More porn. I dont even know what to do or where to go. I love him. I understand he had issues as a child. He is now 43. The thought of him watching these perfect women and then coming to bed and being with me makes me want to vomit. It is triggering my PTSD from the previous relationship. He tells me he doesn't masturbate to it which I believe is a totally load of crap. He says that it is used as a form of a way to be abusive to women because that's what his father taught him. Which is alarming in itself. It took me 7 hours of battling with him yesterday, with the proof again right in front of him to admit to it, and that he's been doing it this whole time. Is there hope for him? Or should I very honestly just give up and move on with my life? This is not something I am willing to bend on. If he cant stop then I will leave.