Not going well currently

hey, so yesterday, I had some mad urges, about a 7/10. It was really tricky but I managed to resist.

In the evening, I was watching tv, and I got a dirty thought. I forgot about it, until I got into bed. The urge came back and it was 8/10. It was really tricky to resist. I talked to my AP, and managed to resist. Having said that, I did edge, which probably explains this morning.

I woke up and the urge is 10/10. It's so tempting, and my brain keeps thinking up P images and scenario's, and excuses. Stuff like you already edged, why not go further? And do a fresh start tomorrow? And all of that.

Spoiler: Triggers here, more detail about what I'm feeling in that department

its so hard. It's throbbing and tingling. My balls ache to be emptied and it's really painful to move. There is so much pre, I'm greatful I was wearing pants. I keep trying to stop thinking about it, but the feeling is so strong it's really hard to ignore.

Never edge people, you'll be in a worse state.

So I'm not in a good spot currently.

 

True that, it's going now, but I know it will come back later, so I need to be careful.

 

Cheers man, I do take cold showers, perhaps I need them colder... Lol.

Actually, should I reset? I haven't PMO'd or MO'd, but I have been doing a lot of edging. What do people think?

 

i'm afraid I relapsed. sorry guys. but I now know that edging is just a terrible thing to do for a reboot. you edge, you'll relapse, no matter how long it takes.

I was edging anytime I could, but before that, never. so no more edging for me