Hello to all of you, courageous partners of porn addicts like myself... My boyfriend is still on reboot, it almost been 30 days now and that's the longest he ever made it clean so far, so I guess he's doing things right this time. But here's the thing: I know, it's stupid and bad of me, but sometimes I read his journal, where he's writing daily about his porn struggle. And what I read in there destroys me, makes me angry and disguts me. I Know i shouldnt read it so it's Kind of my fault but still. To know he's from fantisising about precise porn stars, about hard scenes and all that... I just don't know I can handle it. It feels like I'm not the one turning him on, but they are. And I just can't stand this idea.