Not sure if my porn addiction problems cause HOCD later in life or else I'm just gay denying...

Look , you didnt had one ! i did and suffered from it so much, i also have anxiety and depression problem , so what, they are not real as well?

half of the world suffer from depression and anxiety.
I am not personally offended, but becuse you didnt had some mentally problem, it doesn’t mean that its not a exist!
Its like people think becuse you have anxiety and depression, it ment that you are crazy!
You have many types of ocd , and hocd is a real thing. Trans porn was my trigger, other may have other triggers.

So for the guy who started this page:
I know my sexual preference, i know it for 24 years, is stright but might be that my fetish is trans , i dont know, but i dont like man thats for sure lol.
Firstly go to therapy, accept yourself and what you had seen , it doesn’t mean you are gay, there are beautiful trannys who look like women, you can different, they are women . And probably when you will meet one you wont have any attraction to her , you see amazing and beautiful trans pornstars , but in real life most of them dont look like them lol. anyways, its bot easy recovery. I am trying for a year now, i relapsed a lot. I have a GF and i am trying to do it for her! I dont want to hurt our relationship, i shared with her my “history” and she “accepted me”. It’s important that you will have support from you beloved ones! Dont be afraid to tell them .

 

I'm afraid i can be in denial..

Help? Denial?


i dont want to be gay or bi (no homophobia)

It all happened 7/8 years ago, before I had no anxiety about this thing, but now yes, I look for answers every day.

I would never date a man, but with a woman yes even though I am super shy and sometimes cancel appointments due to my social anxiety.
Iconsider myself straight most of the time , I had so many girls, I had sex with them many times and I loved and cried for girls, but i get hella urges at night sometimes where i jack off to gay porn ever, and play with my ass wishing i was getting f***** in the ass. after i cum post nut clarity hits and im like wtf was i doing, but the urges After a few days return. anyone else feel the same? Sometimes i shave my ass and i wear panties, but i dont want never to be gay, I don’t have the courage or maybe not even the desire to try. It’s not even a matter of fear of judgment since my family would accept me as gay, I followed a psychologist/sexologist who told me I’m not gay and I talk to an expert about gay and says I’m not gay. I’m not attracted to men at all. I watched every types of porn but i dont think its porn addiction, im scared i could be gay

 

Do you watch trans porn as well or only man?
It can be from porn addiction? Did you started from normal porn and with time you escalated the catagories?

i know becuse trans porn , i sometimes think about having sex with on and whats included with it, but i dont attracted to man. I never watched gay porn or fantasies about.
You might be a B , and maybe not. by the way if you didnt knew it , our G point is in the …. so many guys want to reach to maximum pleasure like women does.

the only question you need to answer is that:
Gay man know that they are homosexual from young age! Like we know we are stright and love women.
Porn can cause you to daubt it, but in the end it does not change the “original/real” preference.
So my question for you:
Did you from young age , thought man as sexual preference, did you liked and had a cruse on one? Or you always had sexual preference as stright ?

My second question:
Did in one day you doubt you sexual preference? You watched a certain category and reach climax, and in the next dAy you started doubt yourself?

sorry for my English its not my main land

 

Girls as sexual preferencies,i watched trans and every type of porn, but i watch sometimes sissy,femboys.

 

Im not turned in real life

 

Bruh, from a perspective that's not you it's damn near certain you've escalated due to your porn use. If you can get yourself away from porn for ~3 months, then evaluate your own feelings and thoughts. Especially if you "watched every type of porn."

 

Sounds like porn escalation, its very common here lol. Try to quit porn , its hard but this is the way!

 

Bruh, if you dont want to be gay then you are not gay. Denial IS NOT about not wanting it, it is about knowing that you are and actually wanting it, but hiding it because of society and family. Like if you dont want to be gay, but feel like you are, you still are not. Nothing in life can force you to be something that you deep down dont want to be. If you stare at a wall for years and masturbate, youll develop a "wall" fetish. Next thing you know youre looking for the perfect wall with no cracks to jerk one off.

Thats not denial, youre not gay. Relax. If you ever catch yourself looking at a handsome man, remember that adminration is not attraction, If you ever look at a man in a sexual way, remember all the shit you watched. You conditioned your brain to be like this and constantly feeding it with negativity and thinking about the same shit whether or not youre gay will have an effect on your brains chemistry and you will always, every single day, prepare for the worst because theres better chances or survival if you prepare for the worst which is the possibility of being gay and not knowing it. So your brain will prepare for that, out of millions of potential outcomes youll only prepare for that one. Relax bro. You cant change especially not in the state that youre in right now. to change you need to change your inner state. Youre not gay. You cant be something you dont want to be. Thats not how life works. Life is hard, but life wont do you dirty like that.

 

I really dont want to be gay , but i had sexting with mans and sendend my ass photos, Just thinking I'm a sissy. Shaved ass and using girls panties, but im very ashamed and i dont want anymore this,but when i have the urge its impossible To hold on. I cried for my last gf, and i loved sex with her.

 

hi bro how are you? i read your last message and felt you are going through the same as me. well bro you are not alone,, tbh you are much better than me in terms of what you are going through right now,, feel free to drop a message to me bro infact i want to chat with you in person about the situation i am going through right now i believe in you you can overcome much hope and all the best!!! will be waiting for your message bro....

 

Let it go damn. Find a way to release the porn. You aren’t fucking gay. None of you commenting here are gay, that’s why you’re in “denial” because you know the gay shit doesn’t align with you. It’s either you want to quit or want to keep suffering. You are not a homosexual

 

Are u talking about my situation?

 

then about my situation bro? i cant have a family? wife? kids?

 

Or course you can bro. I don’t see why you can’t?

 

What do u think about my situation?

 

Know this is getting more common - guys like you and me getting addicted to sissy porn. When you're "sane", I'd advise blocking Reddit and other sites that trigger you. I use this blocker called BlockSite. Also delete all those apps and block the contacts of those men you sexted to.

The thing is it's not going to stop you from accessing these things. But it's going to make it WAY less likely.

 

What do u think? We are gay?

 

Bruhh, NO! I don't think either of us are gay. Trans porn's intended audience is heterosexual males (this comes from the manager of a trans porn tube site). I have a hunch that sissy porn's target audience is the same!

 

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