Not sure

So I'm basically a straight guy, with some bi vibes. I mean I find guys attractive if they are, but I don't wanna make out with them.

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But I like dicks. I have sucked a couple few years ago in highschool and received same back, just like classic experiment some might call. First time was kinda yucky, but it maybe was because of the highene. Because the next time I quite enjoyed it and was super turned on by doing it, even now thinking about it. I was putting it all in the past, but the urges keep coming back. So I found someone with similar interests. A guy who is in relationship with a girl, but also wants to have some fun with man's genitals.

Okay, so this all was bit off topic, but this is the main question. I have decided to meet up with him some day, and have some fun. But I haven't played with my self for 20days, cuz trying nofap,

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but I don't wanna cum instantly cuz I probably will in one minute if he touches me in any way. So I was thinking maybe masturbating right before we meet up to last longer.

So what you guys think I should do?

 

Well, if you put it like that, I guess you're right. I think I'm not ready just yet. Thanks for the advice