Notes to myself

It's 8 days now. No urges. Yesterday slept well. Anxiety is much less today, feeling calm. Need to quit smoking also I think. Doing cycling also every day. Urges are almost gone. But need to be vigilant. Need to focus more on studies. Much less irritable today.

 

It's 9 days now. No urges. Anxiety is less. Sleeping well. Important exam after 2 weeks, need to focus now.

 

It's 10 days now. No urges. Feeling calm. Focusing on studies.

 

It's 11 days now. No urges. Yesterday felt bit anxious but definitely no urges. Slept well. Feeling calm today.

 

It's 12 days now. No urges. Anxiety is much less. Feeling calm. Sleep is getting regular and sound.

 

It's 13 days now. No urges. Anxiety is getting less and less. Slept well.

 

It's 14 days now. No urges.Yesterday felt anxious in evening but not much. Sometimes hidden dark thoughts try to come on surface, but we know them and we supress them easily. This is what happened yesterday. Slept well. Focusing.

 

It's 15 days now. No urges. Anxiety is much less. Slept well. Can concentrate on studies better now. Previously use to feel lethargic most of time, which is not there now.

 

It's 16 days now. No urges. Yesterday evening was feeling depressed, maybe due to exam pressure. No urges or temptations. Yesterday was not able to concentrate. Today feeling calm. Slept well.

 

Yes brother same story. Let's start the journey.

 

It's 17 days now. No urges. Feeling calm now. Yesterday was tensed because of exam pressure. Hope this anxiety get reduced.

 

It's 18 days now. No urges. Anxiety is less. Feeling calm. Slept well yesterday. Concentration improved compared to last 2 days.

 

It's 19 days now. No urges. Feeling calm. Anxiety is less. Anxiety gets improved over time. Thoughts keep running on back of mind, but they can be easily ignored. Anxiety is more in morning but over day gets reduced. No urges and I am thinking why I even started PMO. And irritation gets less and less. Previously I use to get irritated so fast. Don't know if this is related to streak or not. I want to still overcome lot of things morning anxiety and lack of concentration. But confidence is rising up.

 

It's 20 days now. No urges. Feeling anxious not because of PMO but exam next week. Slept well yesterday. Need to focus now.

 

It's 21 days now. Yesterday had thoughts running in my mind about fantasies, not serious one but intense one. No thought gave me erection but made me anxious. I could easily faught them. Today morning no such thoughts. Feeling calm.

 

It's 22 days now. No urges. Sleeping is improving. Anxiety is within control. Just thoughts running in back of mind. Controllable but annoying. Concentration is good.

 

It's 23 days now. Yesterday was though day. Felt urges. Not intense one. Any advice ? I am sure I won't break streak, but it's disturbing, feeling anxious.