Hello. Simply nothing works. No matter how hard I try. How much self-discipline I come up with. How far I (could) go out of my comfort zone. The worst part is I know I'm weak, anywhere I'd go on this planet I'd fail, I acknowledge it can always be worst. I keep relapsing but NoFap is not the problem (anymore) I think. I developped a social incompatibility with everyone and it's really HARD to live. Yeah you'll probably answer me of course it won't work if you don't believe in yourself. Just to let you know that hope has its limit, it starts fading after a few years my friends. I don't have any real life friends at 22, I don't work, and I barely come out of my house, it's just that when I do I'm putting myself in danger now. I have severe anger towards people or social interactions. I avoid them, because I've tried for 3 years to speak with people it just deteriorated my sanity, even though I've learned a lot from my mistakes. It's not as simple as you think for everybody. I went to 6-7 therapists, they didn't help much. When they ask me where will you be in 5 years ? I can only come up with "I'll be dead". I'm just tired of this situation, I refuse to end up staying this loser passed 25. I'd rather die. I'll probably hit somebody one day to express my regards to this "social world" I so much wanted to join, and it'll not end up good because I'd have hit the wrong person. This is only because I cannot build a social circle, nor make a friend, nor find any passion worth living for. Now I just have angriness towards these "normal people". I have tried, I can't settle down anywhere. This is how far it can go. I'm tired of seeing everyone happy but me.