Buddhabro
Fapstronaut
I’m 57 years old and about 29 months ago I began to trying stop watching porn and masturbating. I became aware of how severely addicted to PMO I was and struggled greatly with stopping. In the beginning I couldn’t stop edging and watching porn; but as the months have passed, I am better able to resist indulging in PMO behaviors. At first, I felt like I couldn’t sleep without PMO. Now that I have greatly reduced my compulsive addiction to PMO, I have become worried that I have severely damaged myself.
Many negative events have transpired over the last 24 months; starting with losing my job and becoming isolated and very inactive. Digestive problems have returned with a vengeance and I have gained 40 lbs and probably lost a lot of muscle mass.
With a dramatic drop of income, I was unable to continue self medicating myself with marijuana and have had trouble sleeping due to actively dreaming.
I’m in the process of applying for SSDI benefits, but now with the realization that I have Peyronie disease and possibly ED, I am beyond depressed.
I have struggled with depression since childhood and over the past 20 years it’s been especially difficult for me. After steadily improving and working for 5 years, I thought I’d finally recovered the life I had lost after losing my job, home, and marriage.
I’m extremely worried and don’t know what to do about this new problem with Peyronie being the cherry on top of the shit sundae that is my life. I have been clinging to the hope that I could rebuild a life worth living again, but now I feel profoundly defeated.
Tomorrow I see my psychologist and report that while I am trying to remain positive, I think my life has gotten much, much worse. I’m also having problems with dry skin, itching, spontaneous rashes, and now open sores appearing on my scrotum. I had gone to a urologist 2 years ago and was told I had an enlarged prostate that he wanted to remove, but without any negative symptoms I was told by my PCP to not go through with it. Next I hope I am able to see a sexual dysfunction doctor who will be able to help. With everything that has happened I’m worried that I will finally give up. I hope that I can continue to fight to overcome my challenges and recover a life worth living again. I’m sorry if I let you down. I am so very sincerely grateful for all the attention and support here.
To all the younger men who are struggling... take your addiction to PMO seriously before it’s too late.
All my love and best wishes to all the friends that have been with me along my journey here on NoFap.
I don’t think I can keep up the daily facade of being positive anymore and will probably take a long break away from here now.
God bless you all. :-(
Many negative events have transpired over the last 24 months; starting with losing my job and becoming isolated and very inactive. Digestive problems have returned with a vengeance and I have gained 40 lbs and probably lost a lot of muscle mass.
With a dramatic drop of income, I was unable to continue self medicating myself with marijuana and have had trouble sleeping due to actively dreaming.
I’m in the process of applying for SSDI benefits, but now with the realization that I have Peyronie disease and possibly ED, I am beyond depressed.
I have struggled with depression since childhood and over the past 20 years it’s been especially difficult for me. After steadily improving and working for 5 years, I thought I’d finally recovered the life I had lost after losing my job, home, and marriage.
I’m extremely worried and don’t know what to do about this new problem with Peyronie being the cherry on top of the shit sundae that is my life. I have been clinging to the hope that I could rebuild a life worth living again, but now I feel profoundly defeated.
Tomorrow I see my psychologist and report that while I am trying to remain positive, I think my life has gotten much, much worse. I’m also having problems with dry skin, itching, spontaneous rashes, and now open sores appearing on my scrotum. I had gone to a urologist 2 years ago and was told I had an enlarged prostate that he wanted to remove, but without any negative symptoms I was told by my PCP to not go through with it. Next I hope I am able to see a sexual dysfunction doctor who will be able to help. With everything that has happened I’m worried that I will finally give up. I hope that I can continue to fight to overcome my challenges and recover a life worth living again. I’m sorry if I let you down. I am so very sincerely grateful for all the attention and support here.
To all the younger men who are struggling... take your addiction to PMO seriously before it’s too late.
All my love and best wishes to all the friends that have been with me along my journey here on NoFap.
I don’t think I can keep up the daily facade of being positive anymore and will probably take a long break away from here now.
God bless you all. :-(
