I was having a thought. What if that feeling of life just not moving forward is just really life telling you something. So Ive thought about my caffeine use alot, my abuse of supplementations, etc. I think it stems from me feeling I am not moving in life. Because when I take that supplement, or that drug, or that caffeine it makes me feel like I am getting ahead a little. To bring it down to a fundamental level, its like when youre feeling a compulsion to do something, that release, its to release the pressure of the life energy within you trying to help you move forward, it is literally Life in its fundamental aspect. When you take that compulsive activity, its like you have a giant water pipe driving pressure within you to do something with life, but when you take that compulsion action, drug, it takes diverts the pressure for some time, it helps "Take off the edge" in a sense. But if you can become a part of the pressure, and become enveloped within it, essentially becoming enveloped with life, that will drive you far in life. You will do something phenomenal and worthwhile. I think that pressure, when associate negatively, is called depression. In that perspective it kind of empowers you whether you want to be happy or unhappy.