Nvr Again, No lookin back, Only up there is to go

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by iWILL123, Mar 31, 2017.

  1. iWILL123

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    I quit masturbating and porn until I get myself a girlfriend. Tired of being a loser who resorts to masturbation. I want to be a man who cares about more than just sex. I hope this helps me better socialize with girls without thinking about dirty thoughts. Ill keep updating this page whenever I feel like it.
     
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  2. J247

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    If you have testicles, you'll get dirty thoughts. You will however acquire the willpower to not act on them and can push them aside easily.
     
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    true
     
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    Day 4: I did 5 hours of intense school work and caught up on everything in class. Its tough at night, but this challenge is giving me motivation to succeed at life. Also started doing the plank challenge. Plan on starting working out again in a long time tomorrow.
     
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    Day 5: Much less focused today; cant get work done. Cant stop thinking about woman...
     
  6. JimmyJohn

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    Stick with it bro!
     
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  7. Michael Beets

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    I always find day 5 to be one of the hardest, don't give in. Good luck dude!
     
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    Day 6: Good productive day! I did very well on both my quiz and the test after studying 3 hours for the test. I feel confident as hell in general. I need to work on getting more sleep and at proper time. This is light work, 90 days will be right around the corner
     
  9. J247

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    +1
     
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    "Life is a marathon, not a sprint. At moments, there will be sprints, but don't forget to pace yourself." - Myself
     
  11. J247

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    So you just added the second part that repeats the first? Lol.
     
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    I am with you bro. I am 6 days in too! The more pain you will feel/harder it will get, the more benefits you will see in the end! So if you are in pain, remind yourself the reward will be this level good. The first 3 weeks are the hardest and the first 3 weeks after a flatline are the hardest. All the other days are no worry.
     
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  13. J247

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    You sure about the flatline being the easiest part of the journey?
     
  14. JasonIsReal

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    In terms of cravings, yes for me it was. In terms of depression, anxiety, insomnia, low energy etc etc, HELL NO.
     
  15. J247

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    Yeah. Cravings are easy to say no to compared to feeling like shit lol.
     
  16. iWILL123

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    damn, I didn't look at it like that
     
  17. J247

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    That's how I interpreted it. If it works for you, keep it!
     
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    Day 17: Long time updating because I didn't feel like it. To summarize, some days I went straight beast mode in terms of getting shit done. I wouldn't let any sexual thoughts get to me while other days I couldn't stop thinking of girls. Lately, I struggle to sleep without fantasizing.
    During this period, I've watched bits of P(not going into details), but I'm not stopping my streak. I wanna say it wasn't my fault, but it actually helped me to resist urges now. Women are more than sexual objects, I will keep preaching myself, although sex dominates my mind at times.
    In other news, I have started exercising everyday now and finished Day 6 today. I used to work out before but I realized I could never keep going for more than 3 months, so now I'm exercising daily even though it's not as much as I did before.
    Also, I approached a girl today that was in my class after class. Conversation was actually pretty shit, I was stuttering too much but I felt some confidence afterwards as she was pretty hot. I really need to start socializing more... Only way I am going to build balls to talk to girls.
     
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    DAY 100!!!!!
    WOOHOO triple digits finally! :)

    First of all, I have to acknowledge I've come so far, man I am really proud of myself. There were moments where I could have given up like I did in the past, but I kept fighting. I remembered during the strongest urges that the dangers of PMO outweigh any temporary pleasure I will get.

    Secondly, I want to thank the NoFap community on these forums, the subreddit, the NoFap app, and especially the group chats on Kik. I would not have achieved this feat without you all. I've wanted to eliminate masturbating and porn for a long time, but I struggled immensely by myself, until I discovered this website and community. Looking at other people's success and failures doing NoFap motivated me in different ways. I wanted to be like the guy who got his first girlfriend on his streak, it gave me hope that this is definitely worth it. When someone reported on the group chat that they've relapsed, it made me remember how bad I would feel if I did. This is such an amazing community. We are all in this together. Thank you again to everybody.

    Last but not least, I want to talk about the benefits I've experienced on this streak. I have become MUCH more focused than I've ever been in my life. PMO was not my only problem. I have a terrible habit of procrastinating (I hate it!). I have ruined a lot in my life when I became a procrastinator about 3-4 years ago. I would miss classes, and show up late to a lot of them, miss almost every deadline and on and on. On this streak, I have become time efficient and I generally get things done more on time now. Although I still have a long way to go until I kill this bad habit. I've eliminated spending hours on the computer and the phone doing non-productive activities and I've replaced it by studying my native language & reading books. I now exercise on the regular for the past 90 days (I've only missed 3-4 days) so I'm much more fit right now and my muscles are starting to pop and my stamina is increasing. I also have learned a lot about women in this streak. If you would've asked me before the streak, "Why do you want a girlfriend?", I would've said "because I wanna have sex." That is a disrespectful way of thinking, which sexualizes women in your brain. I've learned to appreciate women for attributes other than their beauty. Society portrays virgins as losers, and I got caught up in it trying to chase p****. I've also come to a conclusion that I am not yet ready for a relationship, and that it is okay to be a virgin. I will wait and find the lovely lady to share my life with when the time comes, until then no sex for me.

    Best of all, I am just so happy nowadays contrast to where I would be depressed most of the time. I have a clear idea of what I must do to achieve my potential. My attitude on life has changed positively and I realized I must enjoy every second of life, through the ups and downs, for it is an adventure you only get once.

    I know it's been a long time since I last updated, but thanks if any of you read all of that.
     
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    Watched porn. Why did I watch it? No excuses. Back to scratch.
     

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