OCD and Pornography Addiction

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Lord Yeshua, Jan 16, 2021.

  1. Lord Yeshua

    Lord Yeshua New Fapstronaut

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    Hi all,

    I’m a new member of this forum.

    I suffer with a form of OCD that gives me deeply unpleasant obsessional sexual thoughts and images. I will not go into detail as it is quite traumatic. I suffer with anxiety and depression because of the intrusive and obsessional thoughts.

    I have spent some considerable time in hospital (several months) due to attempted suicide on more than one occasion because of the obsessional thoughts. I am on a number of medications: Olanzapine (an antipsychotic for the voices in my head), Clomipramine (an antidepressant that targets obsessional thoughts) and pregabalin for anxiety.

    I am also addicted to internet pornography which only adds to my isolation and depression. I think it may help fuel the thoughts as well. I am desperately trying to stop viewing it – I have even got my parents involved to help me stop looking at pornography. I live with my parents at the moment as I am studying for my PhD.

    My laptop and phone remain in a public place in the house to reduce temptation and my parents take my laptop and phone at night. But I manged to look at porn today when my parents went out shopping. I was so disappointed in myself because I had managed a couple of weeks without porn.

    I am just looking for encouragement, support, and any tips you guys can give to help with pornography addiction. The struggle is real. I can barely orgasm these days unless I am viewing some seriously hardcore pornography.

    Cheers,

    Lord Yeshua
     
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  2. Pizzer

    Pizzer Fapstronaut

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    This sounds all very typical.

    Concerning the OCD, what I can say is that I suffered with POCD and HOCD recently (HOCD still on going), what I've noticed is abstaining from anything sexual, even touching or looking at my penis, the OCD gets very quiet, I still have thoughts but they are very manageable now, and it's worlds better than what it was 2 months ago, I'm hoping it'll eventually just go away, or the thoughts become so absurd that I can laugh it off, hell that's where I'm at with POCD, it doesn't even make any sense.

    It also doesn't help to beat yourself up about relapsing, we're going to fail and that's just part of the process, just remember, failing is a part of growing and learning, as long as you learn something about yourself, then it's not really a failure.

    I can't offer any concrete tips for quitting pornography, we're all struggling with this, all I can say is try to catch yourself when you are looking at anything even remotely sexual, and suppress that shit asap, it won't do you any favours.
     
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  3. Quiet Riot

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    Thats really cool that you have your parents helping you out. I dont think a lot of parents would be willing to help their kid overcome a porn addiction, you very lucky.
     

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