Hi guys, I haven't posted in a while, I don't really know why. I guess I'm trying to keep quiet and rack up some days so I can post on the success stories page instead. I decided to post again because I have come to realise I am a total addict and I am in need of help. I'm even considering professional help. You see, the thing with my porn addiction is that is it detriment to my health. I have this weird thing that from what I gather is very rare: when I PMO I get insomnia. Now I'm not the best sleeper ever, and this only makes it worse. It's pretty much a guarantee that if I fap I won't sleep that night, and being an addict makes life fuckung tough. I have more sleepless nights a week then restful ones and it is taking its toll in my health and happiness. If anyone else has this problem please contact me. I end up fapping then lying awake all night feeling awful. Drag myself through the next day feeling miserable and not connecting with others and vow to myself that it'll never happen again. I set my day counter get a day or 2 under my belt, start to feel a bit better, then relapse. It's the vicious cycle. My longest streak ever was about 15 days only because I was busy and went on holiday. Since then I've not been able to get more then 5 days, it's pathetic. I have tried porn blocking, keeping myself busy, I work out almost everyday and have meditated for years but this is one thing I can't control. I don't even get urges. It's almost like I'm possessed and have no say in the matter, then come to after relapsing and am shocked that I had no control over myself. If anyone can relate or offer advice please help. I'm sick of waiting to feel good about life again.