Here I am. I've been watching porn since i was at least 11, although it might have been earlier than that, I can't remember. I'm ready to be done. I can't reconcile my porn use with how I want to live my life. I'm 22 now, and studying to become certified as a personal trainer. I'm in a committed relationship with someone who deserves my full love and attention. I watch porn nearly every day, usually for an hour or two. After I'm done, I typically feel angry and ashamed of myself. This in contrast to the trance like "fuck-it" feeling I have right before binging. In all honesty, I doubt I can do this. I have known I need to stop watching porn for years, and I have never gone more than a week on my own. I'm afraid that it's too deeply entrenched into my brain, having watched porn habitually since well before puberty. I stumbled across NoFap while on youtube, the place I generally start my porn cycle, but instead chose a video of a man saying how it changed his life. However, I've said things like that to myself before, and ultimately been successful. There's a part of me that believes it is possible. I'm tired of having to think about porn every time I have sex in order to reach orgasm. I'm tired of not reaching orgasm with my partner at all because I watched porn that day. I'm tired of making her feel undesired or not good enough for me because I'm too ashamed to tell her it's just that I've watched porn every goddamn day for over 10 years and it's all I can associate sex with. I long to live a wholesome, peaceful, healthy life, and in that life, porn is not present. Do you think I can do it? I would welcome any tips on balancing a PM challenge with using social media and the internet. Thanks for reading.