Old Fapstronaut, yet Brand New and Noob here

Joined in as member last year, but only interacted with the site a little back then. Read a few posts and continued with the crap throughout. All throughout I kept on deciding to no PMO, but NEVER ACTUALLY DECIDED, and hence never actually executed the plans. Then came Ramadan this year, and miraculously with little effort, I didn't do PMO . And just when I thought I had won, on the 25th of Ramadan night, I happened to come across some filth on Instagram. I decided to probe a little bit more and checked the profile and photos etc. I however held myself that time from watching full on P, or M. In the morning though, I found myself still stuck with the filth in my head. I managed to carry on, without giving in to the carnival desire of M, even though I did, for no reason, take a peek at some filthy pics. And just when I had thought that no, I won't do this in this Ramadan, I convinced myself that I won't do M, but could do some P, as if previous experience hadn't told me what P always leads to. That's what I did, watched some P. The final nail in the coffin was the decision to carry my phone along with me to bathroom, even though I had convinced my self yet again, that I won't M and half-heartedly convinced myself that I won't even watch P in there, as it had been some time that I had watched P. But there I was glancing over some pics. Some more. And then a full relapse. Fast done away with. Another Ramadan with me indulging in fap. The only consolation is, I pulled it so long. And without many efforts. And hence could do it all over again and this time for longer periods of time or may be forever.

 

welcome again

 

I managed to overcome quite a number of week urges and a couple of strong ones, but I just relapsed.
How can I not relapse?
I somehow have to not relapse

 

That is so apt a statement; a fact. The feeling of having won does make one complacent, and careless. In my case, I would rather say that I had become even haughty to some degree, thinking that I am over this teenage stuff of PMO, not realising the patterns in brain made since childhood won't just leave in 20 or so odd days. I let the guard down.
The good thing is that after yet another failed attempt, I have joined a 100 day no PMO Spartan Challenge, and God Willing I am going to go all out and rescue myself.

 

Thank you for those kind words, and Amen to your conclusion

 

Thanks. Not some, all of it does resonate.

 

Just wanted to put it there for the likes of me wondering how best to use it. I am not at all going to tell you how to use the platform to the full or in the best way possible (I don't know that myself). What I do intend to put out there is that, join a thread where you come back and check in for every successful day. Make it a ritual. Come what may, failure or success, you check in and make an entry for the day. Believe me, more often than not, the chances are that as soon as you get some thoughts in your head, or urges, the very thought of posting streaks in the thread will help ward off by the evil thoughts of surrendering to your bad habits, your whims and fancies. Instead, you can easily divert your mind and start thinking about how you are going to describe to others on the platform about how you controlled, and why checking in everyday helps.