Old Habits Die Hard

Hi folks,
I've had it rough over the last few days. I have not relapsed but it has been a darned close run thing. Last night I was watching a Sci-fi programme. It featured scenes of a sensual nature. I found myself googling the actresses names during my viewing. It was not until this morning that I realised the risk I was running.
Before I got up this morning further difficulties arose.I start fantasizing about a famous woman. I have fapped to her image frequently in the past. I desisted thank goodness.
I am currently enduring a mental and physical health crisis. In fact this crisis is an existential one. Last night it dawned on me the true size of the task in front of me. It will require a huge effort on my part to gain a level of decent health.
I suspect that my latest bout of flirting with danger is not because of a high sex drive. It is procrastination on my part. It could well be a subconscious,perhaps not so subconscious, attempt to avoid taking action!
Please let me know what you think. Take care everyone and stay sober.

 

Alas I have succumbed yet again! I am disgusted with myself. I will have to start all over again. I was doing so well. I let my personal issues overwhelm me. I doubt that I shall ever overcome this addiction.