On and off for 2 years

Hello everyone,

I'm 29 years old male. I don't quite remember when it all started, but I've been escaping using PMO for roughly 15 years. Until about 2 years ago, I didn't think of it as a major issue. Then it got out of hand. You all probably know the story. I was doing it several times a day and for hours at a time to the point of soreness. It wasn't pleasurable anymore, but I literally couldn't stop.

I remember the first time I came across r/nofap late in 2016. I thought it was ridiculous. After all those years, I couldn't imagine how could anyone go 90 days without PMO. And why would someone want to? Unthinkable. I read a few posts anyway, and to my surprise, they sounded painfully familiar.

Over the next few months, I dug deeper into the available resources (thanks you, guys!) and learned about the mechanics of the addiction. While still in denial, I challenged myself: if I weren't addicted then, surely, I could go a month or two without fapping? Needless to say, I was crawling on the walls and relapsed after two weeks. That was the longest I've gone without PMO since my teens, an eye-opening experience.

I kept going and learning and had some good streaks eventually (the last one being 36 days in Jan/Feb). But the addiction proved to be much more insidious than I thought. Two years in, I don't think that I can beat it alone.

I had a brief spell of delayed ejaculation which disappeared completely after I moved away from heavy use to intermittent relapses. Right now, my problem is endless justification leading to a relapse and binges when I do.

In here, I'm hoping to find support and accountability and, of course, give back as much as I can to fellow new fapstronauts!