On Being Attractive

I've always been extremely skinny, and for a while I had really bad unattractive posture. On top of those, I was socially awkward, lonely and masturbated frequently. This wasn't too long ago either, during last spring. This summer everything started to change, while I was on vacation in a different country. Constant looks from girls everywhere I went. Skip to this autumn, I'm at school and it keeps happening like crazy. This is insane to even say this and I still think to some extent I'm being delusional. I'm used to it by now and I try not to think that much of it. It's just something I have never witnessed before to think that it is happening to me is bizarre. I uploaded a pic of myself on this thread (I've never a pic of me on the internet before). I honestly keep having troubling thoughts cause I wasn't used to this before like am I really drawing in attention or what is going on. I've worked so hard for everything: fixed/fixing my posture, been eating to gain mass, dropped masturbation which a whole other story on its own.

 

Yes, I have quit altogether. I basically quit on the vacation which I mentioned on my text, but I did relapse a few times after that. It's been 2-3 weeks since I last did it now, can't remember exactly cause I don't count days. My addiction isn't strong at all, which is why I see no point in counting days. I have 0 desire to look at porn, or to masturbate. I know I can't get anything out of it and I focus on real life more.

 

Thank you man. All the best to you aswell.

 

Thanks for the positivity.

 

Yes, trust me I know. I'm extremely skinny, yet I so many girls seem interested in me. I know it doesn't matter to them, but it does matter to me. I won't be with a girl until I get bigger. I just don't feel comfortable with myself, yet. Soon though.

 

You just can't tell how skinny I am from that picture. Last health examination I was 179cm and 51kg. Currently I am probably like 180-182 cm and maybe around 53-55kg. And that is insanely skinny, even though these health people at my schools have told me there's nothing wrong with me, but I know it's very abnormal to be this low weight at this height.

 

Yeah, I'm already eating quite a bit. 4-5 good sized meals every 3-4 hours and 2 bananas in between every 1.5-2 hours. I also already drink a lot of milk along with my meals. I definitely need a workout program so I'm willing to go with the Starting Strength one, just tell me is this the right place to get it from: https://startingstrength.com/get-started/programs

 

Thanks a lot man. Your advice will carry over to something great.