On day 10

I've posted a few times in other places, but realized that I never came here to introduce myself.
I'm 34, married, with 3 kids. My PA didnt start until my mid 20s, after me and my wife had our first kid. I had of course seen porn and had M in past, but it was sporadic, and never really a problem. After our first kid my wifes sex drive went down, life got in the way, and I turned to PMO to fill the gap. Fast foward 8 or 9 years, two more kids later. P had by this point basically made me sex crazy, leading to fights with my wife about her not wanting sex. This turned out to be a good thing for a couple reasons. First, it led to multiple really good conversations with her about our sex life and how we both wanted more out of it. She got off birth control (I've had a vasectomy), which definitely helped her libido, I spend more time making her feel like I want her, putting her in the mood, stuff like that. Second, it made me take an honest look at what PMO was doing to me. It turned my wife, my bestfriend and soulmate, the love of my life, in to little more then a sex object. I became obsessed with it. I started seeing signs that it was harder for me to keep erect during sex, and that death grip had stolen a good amount of my sensitivity, making sex barely feel good at all. So a few months ago I came to this page and joined, but didnt share or post at all. I tried to white knuckle it alone. That didnt work, I went a week or two at a time, would start to see positive results then just quit. I realized that I may need the help that this community brings to really make it thru. As it sits I'm on my 10th day, and am already seeing some results. Yesterday was the first time me and my wife had sex since I started this current streak, and my erection was definitely better, and I could already feel more down there during it. I dont want to go back which is why I'm here. Lastly, my wife never really minded me watching porn or M. She doesn't feel betrayed or anything like that. We have a really solid marriage, so she pretty much knows everything. I just told her I'm gonna stop PMO cause its messing with my brain, and my ability to function down there, and she said go for it, sounds like a good thing. Sorry for the long post, hope you all have a good day. Any advise any of you long time guys have I'm all ears.

 

What do you mean by commitment? Like a time frame?

 

I may give that a shot...I'm just scared if I do that instead of just saying I'm done with PMO I'll just be watching the days until I can do it again.

 

Good work on the 9 days brother...I think what has helped me is I didnt start until my mid 20s...so wasnt doing all that fo a still developing brain. Or that might not matter at all, I'm not a doctor lol. Thanks for the nice words, and keep it up

 

I've tried a time frame before...and what I said is exactly what happened...I waited my two weeks then bam...go on a binge

 

As a Christian this as helped me as well