Hello.... Ive been married to my "Best Friend" for 3 years.. been together for 7 years. And I do say "Best Friend" because he feels more like a friend rather than a husband. We have a good relationship, for the most part. We can go out and have a great time together. I believe we make a great team together but we DO NOT have an intimate relationship..If im lucky we have sex once every 2 months, Thats literally 6 times a year.. How OBSURD is that. I don't feel like he's "My Husband". I first realized his PA when we first got married but I was in denial and not well educated on PA. Our marriage is holding on by a thread.. We have tried Counseling, a lot of different counselors to be exact. We always change counselors because he finds an excuse to not follow up.. example: " She's a white woman she's never going to understand us." or " He's on your side". He's blinded by his PA its so hard for him to stop.. or I now feel like he doesn't care to stop it. Ive bought him books on PA, I signed him up to SAA classes, Ive talked to him and He will be good for a week and then return to Porn. He finds a way to always turn around everything on me. He doesn't take responsibility of his actions and doesn't realize how bad he is affecting our relationship. I know I'm not the problem I am 30 years old with a high libido and I am physically fit, beautiful and smart. Men and Women tell me Im beautiful EVERYDAY, Every time we go out I get compliments but none of them matter If I don't have the attention from the only man that matters. I let him know that I need sex, but even after a conversation he gets offended He gets aggressive, he attacks and blames me and says I started the fight because I bring it up.. Ive caught him on the act, I've found Porn on his computer, phone and even our TV, He has no self Control. Everyone at work knows he watches Porn, They talk about him and make him out like a Pervert. Sometimes I wonder if he's Gay, Ive seen gay porn, transexual porn in his history. Ive caught him at a "Gay Sauna" and Doing crazy FAP like inserting a wine bottle in his butt.. Thats when he first opened up to me about his PA and asked me for help but I dont know if it was because he was ashamed that I caught him because he only went to SAA classes for a month and never went back. Ive stuck with him thru thick and thin and I don't want to walk away from my marriage without trying one last time. PA is not only affecting my husband, It's affecting my family and myself. I don't want to ever look back and say I didn't try. At first I thought this was a rough patch but 3 years later and It doesn't get any better now it just feels forced and robotic. I feel like im losing myself trying to revive a relationship that has died a long time ago.