Once Thought I Was FUBAR

[Maj. Benson Payne]

Still do kind of. So much so I can't even write out all the details of my issue. The shame is so powerful I can't be entirely forthright with you here anonymously.

I think I could admit it all to a therapist but I have no plans on seeing one. I mean I have admitted it before to one and it made me cry. She didn't respond as nearly as bad I guess as I was thinking she might have or maybe not or I would not have told her those details.

I am being filled with more hope today. Also humility but not in a toxic shame sort of sense just like less focus on whether or not I matter more than the person next to me anywhere in life.

 

[palindromo]

Welcome
Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind > https://oceanrecoverycentre.com/2016/07/the-ultimate-guide-to-overcoming-internet-porn-addiction/

First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.
> https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/por...l-size-and-or-libido-are-decreasing-flatline/

Spoiler: About Relapse Prevention

We should improve in all area of our life, just being dissatisfied or stressed makes us relapse.

An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist

 

[LakeMichigan]

@Maj. Benson Payne You did a brave thing by admitting to at least one person! You cannot change your past but you can change your future. Sometimes, we cannot believe that we can change ourselves but many have done it here and we can learn from them and try to change it ourselves for the better.

 

[Spontifex]

@Maj. Benson Payne, hi and welcome. No one is here to judge you. We are all not feeling great about what we did. Whatever it is, find someone you trust and speak it out. Take good care of yourself and stay well on track.