One and a half years working on this addiction

Hey I'm a young healthy fit male. I first started to realize I had a problem when I was having erectile dysfunction. I started going to therapy with a sex addiction specialist who helped me to look deeper into my problems, as well as why I may be using this coping mechanism.

I have been obsessed and addicted with porn, cam girl chats, cyber sex, sex, all centered around femdom fetish. I have spent countless hours and lots of money on this addiction. I have also ruined a relationship with an amazing woman who was actually willing to work with me on my issues around this.

I have learned so much in the last year and a half between therapy, attending 12 step meetings, as well as various other self help, and self development approaches.

My problems with ED actually remedied somewhat quickly after some time in recovery. However there is a whole story with that as well. Turns out my ED was partly due to the hyperstimulstion from masturbation to porn, but also partly a sort of mechanism that kicked in when I was in sexual situations I didn't feel comfortable, safe, and relaxed.

Even though the ED isn't so much or a concern, this addiction has come back to haunt me in various forms. For me, I can go right back to this habit, if I am not living a good life and staying on top of various other healthy habits such as meditation, having regular conversations with other people suffering with this, journaling my feelings, etc.

Currently I am single and striving for a period of abstinence from porn, sex, and using dating apps of any kind.

As I previously stated, talking with other people and supporting each other has been the most helpful thing for me. This is very hard to do without help from others. I am looking for some others to become mutual support buddies with.