One day at a time...

I am an introvert and actively trying to quit my use of porn. I realized a while ago that I was using porn to escape reality. If I was too scared to go talk to a girl, no problem I could go to my computer and get off. If I was feeling sad about not doing well in school or sports, no worry, I could watch a video to make me feel better. And on its went. Despite be being fully aware of this pattern I keep on finding myself in it. I think that why it hurts so much. I know the signs, seeing myself failing, but instead of stopping I just keep going ahead and ending up back where I started.

 

Thanks. I appreciate it

 

I really do. I've had some good streaks before- 60 and 80 days before but when I relapse I end up finding myself in a downward spiral for a while before I regain control. I think for me it has to a lot will will power. Something that I definitely lack at times. So I've installed cold turkey and parental controls to help me when I'm in those moments of weakness.