Dear community, I started on Sunday, at noon. It worked out until this morning. Behind me lies a 4 year long and tragic relationship, in wich both of us got to understand that we somehow love but cannot really support each other, we didn't develop as much as we hoped to, and also sexually it was often very difficult. Then we broke up and now, since yesterday, I know that she has a new boyfriend. I am scared of loosing her completely and any grip to life that I have, it's not much at the moment. The fantasy of being the one guy who pleasures her, is close to her, is loved by her, overwhelmed me early this morning and I masturbated with these fantasy in my head. I do not really know what to do about it, I feel lost without her, so damn lost, and these sexual fantasies are the only thing that seems to keep me away from all the pain. Is there anyone with a similar experience? Also, I am in the very stressful situation of finishing my studies in april, maybe not the best situation to become a fapstronaut???!!! Thanks already. K.