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Hey,

So I'm 16 years old. Looking around the website, it seems I am one of the younger users, but I would like to asked not to be judged by this. I'm not a naive, oblivious teen that feels guilty for masturbating when it isn't a problem. I have come to the conclusion that I do have a problem.

Sorry for the brusque opening!

Masturbation and porn have slowly become a detrimental part of my life. I think I've been wanking since I was 11, and after talking to my friends I found that I was probably one of the first among us. It never became an issue until I entered a relationship just over a year ago. Since becoming sexually active (exc. "PIV") my sex drive has driven tremendously, and I now masturbate to porn 2-3 times a day. It's compulsive. I've done it at school several times. I did it in a bush on the way home three days ago. This is when I admitted to myself thatI have a problem.
I've joined this site in hope and need for some kind of understanding. Perhaps there are some that have been where I am and can make me feel less alone, and less wrong. What I mean is, I'm not a bad person. I'm not a disgusting person. But three days ago, I found a bush and masturbated to porn in it while others could have easily seen if they were looking closely. My girlfriend and I sext, though rarely, and when we do I will masturbate compulsively and almost constantly throughout the next few days. We share photos, but I still end up resorting to porn. This isn't something we talk about much. In fact, the simple idea of porn really makes her uncomfortable. I am in no way blaming her for any of this. I have a problem and I am looking for help, and for now, independently.

Pleasure to meet you all! I doubt many will read this, but I do hope that I can find my place in this community. I suppose I will start my "reboot" tonight? I would really appreciate any guidance through this. I don't know what I'm supposed to do here.

Thank you for reading! I have never shared so much information before.

BasketCase

 

Thanks mate, it really does mean a lot to hear stuff like this. I feel that this community has an overall sense of...well, community!