One night stands while on NoFap

yup... makes sense. idk about you but I have a history of addictions. thats what worries me. I partied hard in my 20s, and now I am facing 10 years of healing this shit... and I dont even know if its worth it, lol. Life is so short, right? idk man... maybe we cannot be healed?
but then again, I really would like to find a girl with whom I could try karezza...

 

lol.

Wait... you partied hard and never had a ons? Sounds a little like me ... I desperately didn’t want to miss out on all the crazy stories... I have now achieved it at 37 and it’s way harder than I thought. I don’t even try to get them. Not emotional connection. Just kinda crappy for me.

 

Well, I was a serious monogamist. Had like 4 LTR relationships. And before that I was too much of a pussy to move beyond petting. I was clueless.

But for example had a short romance flick with a chick I meet in other country and it was never relationship material but I loved the sex and experience and I will always cherish the memory - emotions WERE involved and I think they always are and some would call it casual, but for me it was a nice experience maybe because I had nothing like that in the past...

> I desperately didn’t want to miss out on all the crazy stories... I have now achieved it at 37 and it’s way harder than I thought. I don’t even try to get them.

you mean one night stands? hmm but how do you get them now at 37?

 

I developed an alter ego , became kinda of playa— late bloomer. But I seriously don’t like it.

I go out a lot when traveling and dance. I usually just focus on enjoying being alone. Because that’s what I’m afraid of. Somehow women surprise me when I’m focused on being happy without them.

 

Hmm yeah. I see. I dont travel that much. Theoretically I could go out again but I am getting tired far quicker than in the past.. I dont drink almost at all (once or twice every several months) so my tolerance is pretty low too. Where do you dance? At clubs? So you just sit at the bar and sip a drink and they come to you?

You dont like being that playa alter ego because its not you, or because you dont allow emotions to run with you? Or maybe because you know that women react to this persona and they should not?