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one of the most dedicated perverted sex addicts

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Pity, Feb 11, 2019.

  1. Pity

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    It may be too late to recover any positive life at this point. I don't want to stop. Someone gave me a wake up call and showed me how sick I am spiritually - totally dead. Fuck. Didn't mean to do all that.

    Exposed to porn (magazines) at 7 my addiction began around 12. Then it was a bed time ritual. I needed more from life and porn was the worst possible thing. Since then I developed such a monstrous habit I would search for and try to view 100 or more staving off climax to build it. I have spent over 24 hours in a single session! None of this bothered me. I only want to expand my horizons and break world records for sexual exploitation.

    People are offended by some of my fantasies. I won't divulge now.

    Well I'm here. I hated signing up. Didn't want to at all. I am addicted as hell. Literally hell isn't enough to stop acting out my desires. So I need help. No doubt.
     
  2. Zur

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    No lo he entendido muy bien por la traducción google. Si eres adicto al PMO soluciona tus problemas. Simplemente, para tener mejores oportunidades en la vida.
    Mucho ánimo y que te vaya bien.
     
  3. Hey mate! Welcome to the forum.

    It's great that you are true to yourself and are admitting yourself as an addict. That's surely the first step to recovery. Congrats about that!

    Clearly, you have developed tolerance and your dopamine is out of balance and so you have to watch so many videos. I remember that I too was once doing a similar thing.

    Brother - Our brain is conditioned to watch Porn. And masturbation is highly addictive. Once you pop, you can't stop. So it's not your fault for where you are now.

    I am sure you don't really mean this. There is a good spirit inside of you waiting to be discovered. Deep down, you actually long for love, connection, respect, companionship, learning, communication, exchanges and fulfilling desires from the opposite gender.

    You can still recover mate. I see you are 43 and I am sure that healing is possible. It's never too late to start changing your life and move in the right direction.

    I would like to ask you: Why do you resort to PMO? What flaws/ weaknesses/ emotions it allows you to cover up for? how can you start facing all of those things? How can you meet your needs in a legitimate way? And what meaningful goals can you take up and stay busy and channel your sexual energy?

    Begin by identifying and addressing your triggers. And then make strong efforts to clean your heart and thoughts. Knowledge is the power and good books would go a long way in helping you out. Do check out and read this book. You might find it useful as I did.

    All the best. Hope to see you active here :)
     
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  4. What's the longest you've gone without porn?
     
  5. Pity

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    resort to? it started when i was 12. it wasn't a decision. it's just always been what i do.
    "There is a good spirit inside of you waiting to be discovered. Deep down, you actually long for love, connection, respect, companionship, learning, communication, exchanges and fulfilling desires from the opposite gender."
    i feel like there is a good spirit inside me. i long for love deep down and right on the surface too. I'm pretty hard for people to take. i never went about mating in any intelligent way. But i do long for fulfilling connection and communication like you said.
    it's my favorite hobby. I really love it. I'm psychologically emotionally and physically addicted / dependent on it. to me it is clean although private. but clearly unhealthy and a monster that will take over sooo.... I'm here.
    thanks
     
  6. Pity

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    i don't know. when i was 16 i went 7 days without masturbating. then i went to see my girlfriend. we were fooling around in her basement when she got up and knelt down and took out my johnson. i didn't say anything or do anything. in retrospect i realize she kinda chickened out and only needed a thimble full of encouragement of any kind. she wanted to please me and i didn't have the wherewithal to realize what was happening. i still regret that. it would've been monumental. as i found out later without any porn

    i really don't know. i was homeless for several years. in that period i had to abstain most of the time.
     
  7. Try to imagine if, say, you went 7 days without porn. Do you think you would feel good about yourself for doing that? If so, that might tell you you should try

    But you do go through withdrawal to, so you have to be prepared to deal with that. NoFap has helped me because, every time I relapse, NoFap reminds me to get back on track
     
  8. Pity

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    gracias
     
  9. Pity

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    yeah. where do i start my pledge thing?
     
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  10. ImpureHuman

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    Of course, you have help from the community. We all trying to help each other and heal. This is a journey. You have a long history of PMO and fantasies. It will take some time to break the psychological conditioning of PMO since you started at that young age. Maybe a few months or years So you must find the strength, courage, patience to fight no matter what happens. Good luck.
     
  11. Pity

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    thanks
     
  12. Pity

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    jerked without porn today
    was fabulous
    lust of the flesh
    what's better than that...
     
  13. ImpureHuman

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  14. Well I guess jerking without porn is a step in the right direction?

    Yeah we know jerking off feels good. There's no disputing that. The problem is that the way our brains work, constantly jerking off/looking at porn makes everything else feel dull by comparison. So do you want to continue with getting your pleasure from jerking off? Or do you want to get your pleasure from other things. Try going "hardmode", no porn, no fapping, no orgasm, like @11square says, and you'll see just how dependent on jerking/porn you are. I know you don't really want to be here, but just try it!
     
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    Dude there is no use of jerking off like that.I dont know about all the scientific stuff, but from my experience it has always been a step back along the same dreaded path of PMOs. Also if you jerked off by imagining stuff its just no use.If you really want to appreciate the life outside of porn you should go on hard mode.I just joined today,But earlier i did go months without PMOs.And jerking off was just opens up a way to a relapse.You can jerk off by imagining doing it with someone you love in a more sensual way.and that will leave you a whoooole lot satisfied.But thats not until you know you have control.
    I see you have just started the journey to success.
    I was just warning so that you dont start the journey on the wrong path.wish you all the best
     
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    Who said I don't want to be here?
    I'm considering it. Thanks
     
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  17. Pity

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    Thanks
     
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  18. Excellent! You want to change.
    Step one completed...
    Many people in your position- take a read of some Success Stories and you will see there is hope.
     

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