Today marks one year of no P-subs and no sexual thinking of any kind apart from the physical and engaged presence of my wife. I am also now well over 500 days of no PMO. I wanted to say something more, but after reviewing my post from last fall when I hit one year of no PMO, I realize that little has changed since then with regard to PMO. The commitments I outlined there are the path I have walked consistently in the intervening months, and I think this is the path I will stay on for the rest of my life in order to continue in sobriety. I am finally free from PMO, P-subs, and uncontrollable sexualized thinking -- I will not choose to go back. One small amendment I made was to change the phrase about the "physical presence of my wife" to "physical and engaged." I did this to clarify that I do not think any sexual behavior or thinking is okay if my wife is present but not actively engaged with me. For example, if she is asleep in bed next to me, fantasizing (even about her) or anything else would not be okay for me. Hopefully that clarification can be helpful to me and to anyone else who happens to read it. Another small change I have made is making the choice not to install accountability software on an iPad I have from my employer. I use it only for work, and I have committed not to use it for any unwholesome purpose. My APs know about this device, and I have committed to them that I will let them know if there is any change in this status. I do not want to go back to the old, terrible "hunting-and-seeking" behavior. This device is one way I am honoring that commitment and enjoying the freedom that is found in my new heart. One day at a time, one thought at a time, submitting every thought to my higher power, Jesus Christ, and replacing the lies I find there with his Truth. Whatever I focus my attention on is what will grow bigger and stronger within me until it overwhelms me. I choose to have my thoughts and my heart consumed by peace and goodness and love, so that is where I will maintain my focus. (Hebrews 12:1-3, Romans 12:1-2) Recovery is possible. Onward!