Opening Up to My Dad About This Addiction

Tonight I'm planing to open up about my addiction of PMO to my dad tonight. I've been thinking about doing this for a while now but it recently escalated when he gave me a lecture on work ethic when he caught me not studying during exams - I let him think that I've been playing video games (which is partly true) but a lot of the time I have wasted is due to pornography. I hope that this will be a stepping stone on freeing myself from the deathgrip of this addiction and may even inspire others to open up to their family. Please let me know what you think about opening to your family about PMO addiction and any insights you have on the scenario I'm in. But first, a brief history on my dad and I.

When I was really young (between zero to ten) I did not get to see my dad often because he was focusing on getting his master's, doctorate and his career. He would try to spend time with me as often as he could but, being the spiteful child I was, I would distance myself from him and act annoyed all the time when I was around him to discourage him to spend less time with me. Now that I'm older, I realise that he does care about me and regrets the time he spent away from me in my most important years. It's irrefutable that our relationship hasn't been as tight-knit as my friends' relationships are with their fathers. English also isn't his first language which I used as an excuse for us not being too close but I want to open up to him now. He is very friendly and a 'not mad but disappointed' father but has recently been on my ass for my excessive use of video games (he doesn't know it's actually pornography). We recently started doing father-son things like watch the John Wick movies whenever they come out in theatres and I feel closer to him than ever.

I am planning on opening up to him tonight about this addiction and will post about his reply whenever I finally do this. My biggest fear is that he won't understand because back when he was my age, porn wasn't as easily accessible as it is now. I am also mortified by the idea of him telling my mother - she is the last person on Earth who should know about this. I'm praying that it goes well. Thanks for reading.

 

He was way more supportive than I could ever imagine. He said that he hasn't dealt with this issue personally but has dealt with other addictions and he said that he appreciated me opening up to him. I really hope he meant it and I can't wait for the days to come. I was really fucking nervous and still feel a bit of regret because I told him but this will definitely go away. I suggest you guys do the same if you're in the same predicament as I.