Opening up...

Hi all!!!
So, I'd like to take something out of my chest.
My porn addiction and my sexual fantasies had led me to have very risky behaviors throughout some years in my former job.
Everything started with masturbation during working hours... one or twice a month... but soon that seemed to be sorta boring.
Then that's when the evil arose. I just figured a way to put a camera inside a hole at the sink of the bathroom... I suppose you can guess the direction the camera would be pointed to... and so, for a year, I'd try to record several girls from work when they were doing their number ones...
I got some shots and things started to be more and more risky. Somehow the mixture of danger and forbiddenness sunk my reason.
As time progressed, I slowly started to feel guilty, depressed and unfulfilled. One day, I just decided that It was enough and deleted everything, all what I had recorded and all porn I had... and then I cried...
I know I can't undo the past... that I violated the privacy and sanctity of some women... that even though they don't have the foggiest of what happened, that doesn't make anything I did "okay".
I nearly came to confess to one of them out of so much shame and consideration I have for her... but courage faltered.
Yes, I know many of you believe I should be prosecuted and rot in prison. But I can tell you... there's a far worse fate... I KNOW and for keeps will carry this SHAME and SIN inside my mind and heart.
The point here is that my reboot is a chance... a do over to a new beginning so I can be better, more human and understand and see women not as merely as a tool of pleasure but as an ally, a common and equal in life.
My story is one example of how far addiction and uncontrolled behavior can lead to near disaster. Today I attend therapy and I'm dating an amazing girl, rebuilding and refocusing my life goals.
My final thought: WE CAN BE MASTERS OF OUR OWN SELVES!!!
Thanks...