Ouch....the lonely bug strikes

So I'm realizing one reason I was addicted to PMO was to stave off lonliness.

For the first few weeks I felt like I had those superpowers and it seemed like I had a bunch of women at me at once. Then I hit the flatline and, coincidence or not, those women disappeared.

Suddenly i'm left by myself without my crutch to run to.....well, there's beer and wine, but that's for another post....

This is where it becomes apparent that PMO has been a real problem for many years.

Funny enough, I'm no longer interested in hitting the local bars. I tried it recently and left feeling like everyone there was a loser.

It's like my standards have risen but I'm not sure how to rise to those very standards. Perhaps I will but one day at a time.

Anyways, being lonely sucks. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I realize it's because I was so busy doing PMO. Just gonna try and sit with it, make some posts and drink a little beer lol (although I feel my body rejecting alcohol more and more...what's up with that!)

Thanks for reading. Glad to be part of this community.

 

I feel the same. We are all on the same path though and all of us have mentioned we tend to be lonely.

Congrats on 44 Days and also here's a website with several chat rooms if you are interested: https://www.wireclub.com/chat. That chat website should give you some people to talk to in real time, and to avoid porn.

 

I'm absolutely alone too. I go out most times all by myself. I have no one. I talk to God sometimes but still I'm hurt. Why does he have me so alone . I'm crying with this realization, that I have no one anywhere around me to lean on. Yes, I have no drama, I have peace in my life but I'm also extremely lonely.

 

You aren’t alone. Porn was my solution to the problem of social isolation. The way to solve the porn problem was to develop other solutions to the social isolation problem. It might sound like I am splitting hairs, but making this distinction was necessary to string together 100+ days.

 

Thanks guys it's great to hear from you, especially in the middle of a labor day weekend.

Gina, I will definitely check out that chatroom. I was just wondering about that, so thank you!

I also understand the drama free life. When I was younger I always had friends but as I grew older I let more and more of that go. I'm realizing it's not just porn I've been addicted to but the internet itself. It's been a substitute for lots of things......well, one step at a time! lol

 

Fuuuuuuuuuhhh.......it's been a real solid week of no PMO and wish I wasn't alone at the moment. Some nights are worse than others. Oh well, tomorrow is almost here