We talked some last night, everything started with me saying that i wanted a few minutes alone with my midwife at our next appointment. For me not an unresonable request, but it ended up with him calling me in panic. Becuse that apperently ment that i was gona leave him. And i have in no way indicated that, i just wanted to discuss something private with her. Becuse i dont feel like i can talk about it with him there. But i feel like thats out of the question now. Later in the conversation he thanked me for being so codependant that i didnt leave him, does exact words. What the accually fuck? First of all how is that something to thank someone for, and secondly how little does he think of me? Does words made me feel like worthless garbage, he sees me as a broken thing that he can play with. And for more info on that, my decision to stay is based on what i feel like is the best option for our child. I know i have talked about it before, but in our country shared custody is the norm. Something has to be extreamly wrong for me to get single custody. Like a high level of physical abuse towards the child, abuse of the partner or addiction isnt enough. And i cant stand the though of leaving her alone with her, i fear that he will expose her to the addiction, neglect her or treat her bad like lashing out like he does to me. So i want to be there to protect her. I dont know a better option. So yea for the sake of my child i chose hell, not becuse im a codependent broken piece of trash.