Over-masturbation ruined my life

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Jazz78

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Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
 
Jazz78 said:
Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
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Yes....mmm... totally understand...Remember this. You are on the right track now, even discovering something about yourself. You choose to join us on this forum. That is the first step! May I ask. Do you "over-masturbate" to p or just in your imagination? In your imagination is told that then you are not addicted to p. If you choose to watch p while M finally O then you are addicted to p, which is much more harmful. I am addicted to p. Psysical and mental side-effects do appear to us all when this happens. I would advice you to try to think differently...try to go 1 day without it...set small goals... See what happens from 1 day free of it. Then you will maybe think this was easy....great...then go 2 days...then 3 days...suddenly you are one week free and you will feel strong difference both psycial and mentally because your energy will be back...then you will have urges from hell...well...let them be just urges... it is good to be horny as hell..just don't respond to it...be happy about it...because it is energy in your body...and then...if you just close the energy inside you instead of M...it will makes you stronger...and stronger....ending your life is always no solution.
 
Jazz78 said:
Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
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I understand you, my brother, and i also feel the same. I was happy, just like you, but after the over-masturbation and the porn came to my life, i lost it's meaning. Porn and masturbation took my ability to love, i cannot love anymore, i can only love my parents, porn and masturbation made me to desire every hot girl i see, since then, i've never loved any girl anymore, just sexual desire of f-ing her body. I've been really tired lately, just like you, having problems with communication... But you are on the right track now, we are, believe me, NoFap will make you some good miracles, don't end your life, please.
 
Don't worry , I got a new hope after joining here, and fully committed to quit masturbation now., But how can i prepare myselft before going through this hard journey...like any medical and other methods if any....??
 
Jazz78 said:
Don't worry , I got a new hope after joining here, and fully committed to quit masturbation now., But how can i prepare myselft before going through this hard journey...like any medical and other methods if any....??
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Hello

I know what you're going through. You need patience to be able to wait for these symptoms. you will harvest what you have been through day by day. It will feel really hard and the symptoms will be strong but when you fight and are "very patient" you will eventually come to feel strong and new energy will flow.

I think you need patience it's most important these times to be able to accept these symptoms.

some tips : Try to walk, run, work out,
much patience.

Recommend if you are a Christian go talk to a priest so he guides you.

I wish you all the best
 
Jazz78 said:
Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
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Inbox me man let's chat..I had similar feeling as well here is the good news.. YOUR ONLY 24 your young and you can over come and kick the habit if you really want too
 
Im on same boat bro ;) IT guy with sad on face. People dont care about you in metro. its only in your mind. Dont think about your face - think about theirs and it will be cool
 
How long did it start at the beginning of the time you did notice that you felt bad before you finished?

I do not mean when you started Pmo but instead I mean, from when to when you felt bad before you finished Pmo?

do you understand me?
 
FightAgainstSin said:
How long did it start at the beginning of the time you did notice that you felt bad before you finished?

I do not mean when you started Pmo but instead I mean, from when to when you felt bad before you finished Pmo?

do you understand me?
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I understand your question.my friend we cannot change the past.i felt the same only we can do fight it.it's all about confidence and your medal stengstr.i hop you understand and you are the best
 
Jazz78 said:
Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
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How long did it start at the beginning of the time you did notice that you felt bad before you finished?

I do not mean when you started Pmo but instead I mean, from when to when you felt bad before you finished Pmo?

do you understand me?
 
Jazz78 said:
Hi I am 24 years old and my life is ruined completely due to over masturbation, I masturbate 1 time daily I got sexual problems like

  1. Premature ejaculation
  2. Small penis
Some other side-effects like:-

  1. Backaches
  2. Head pain most every day
  3. Some effect is like - tickling of nerves around my neck to heart (that i can feel heart is pumping high) to above stomach area continuously.
But the most severe problem that affects my life is Mentally related:-

  1. Low confidence
  2. Sadness on my face every time- like a poker face, people always say to me that you look sad, low-energy.
  3. I can’t smile now my facial expressions are not good, even when I smile it seems that It’s fake that doesn’t come natural - (I was very happy and jolly person in my childhood but now everything lost).
  4. Weak memory.
  5. I can’t communicate to anyone properly- can’t have eye contact, very soft voice, my heart-beat increases when I talk to strangers I feel they are noticing me that my face looks different, like with my friends, family members, relatives, even with Mother- that’s the worst.
  6. Anxiety/Depression I don’t know exactly, I am from Delhi I travel in metro daily and have to face people around me I feel they are staring at me , I got the feeling that they see my face and thinks that what is this guy looking like, very sad, very tense, low confidence this increases my facial expression too bad.
  7. I started my career as an IT professional 2 year back, and due to these all above mental problems, my profession is also going very bad.
I need help regarding this I am completely lost, I sometimes feel I should end my life.

Please help me how to recover from these.
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I won't say much my friend. But don't beat yourself too much about it. Just relax and do nofap and even forget about having real sex with a girl for now.

Just focus on NO PMO. You are going to recover, that I'm sure about. The first month might be difficult and you might probably feel depressed a lot of time but it's going to pass and it'll get a lot easier.

You can recover
 
There's nothing you have lost that you can't recover compared to some other people. Just take it one day at a time
 
I've not read the entire post, but small penis can't be defined as a sexual problem. Your penis won't grow unless you're 8 or you have a surgery.
 
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