Overcome the thought

Whenever i feel an urge or whenever i want to relapse, its because i want to watch porn, thinking that it will make me happier, more relaxed and focused. But it doesn't. It only makes me depressed and my brain turn to sand as i can't think straight. And i have to remind myself that if I dont want to watch porn, i dont have to. No one is forcing me, so why should I? its completely down to me to decide what I do. It is just my addiction trying to convinve me that one relapse isn't so bad, but deep down i know that it is. That it will lead to more. And i will have to start all over again.

When a provoking thought comes, i must immediately let it go before my addiction takes control over my brain and i need to think rationally as i know relapsing will do me no good.
I want to watch porn, but then i dont. I want to be happy, but i know watching it wont help. Me thinking i want to watch it is just my addiction trying to get that dopamine hit its always been used to getting. Me not wanting to watch it is my real self, and i have to talk sense to myself in order to stop myself from watching it.
This will be useful in preventing me from relapsing

 

That's some sane thinking! I hope I keep my mind parked there too. Journey to progress!