Paid porn and a dull dick: My hope for a new start

the_rebel_angulo · Feb 23, 2019

I started masturbating when I was 12, and haven't missed a day since. I'm 24 now. I'm in a great relationship, and have a stable job. I masturbate two or three times a day, spending hours on pornography. For the past year, I've spent money on paid pornographic sites, like camgirls, Snapchats, OnlyFans. I estimate I've spent at least $2,500 on this over the past year. It's terrible.

What are the consequences?

Well, immediately, my finances. I have a decent salary, so I haven't run into times of desperation because of porn, but I've definitely missed out on the advantages of saving money for things I enjoy. I've had to forgo positive things I'd like to buy or contribute to as a result. Another is my penis' sensitivity. I've never had an orgasm during sex. I last forever. I have to masturbate in order to cum. I don't look forward to sex as much as I would if my penis were more sensitive. I've also actually hurt my dick! My foreskin's a bit swollen. I ignore the discomfort, but it's to my own peril. And finally, I've just missed out on self-development as a result. There are so many things I want to do that I just can't because I masturbate so often.

I've installed parental control settings on my laptop and other devices. They've helped a bit, but not as much as I would like them to. At the end of the day, you can restrict a man all you want, but he'll figure out how to subvert those restrictions if he wants. I ask myself if I actually want to do this. Do I actually want to stop masturbating as much as I do? Or am I in a position to want to want these restrictions? I don't actually think I want to stop. I want to want to stop. So how do I move from wanting to want this change to actually wanting that change? Sheer willpower, discipline, and support from others. They're the only things I haven't tried.

Here's to change! Here's to stop spending money on so much stupid shit! Here's to actually putting my head down and doing the work. I hope for your support, and to share my journey.

AndyRicardo · Feb 23, 2019

Hi,My bro.
I have the similar experience to you. And I also started masturbating when I was 12 years old.
I think,
Firstly,you should understand that the core of stop masturbating and quit porn is change your mind.
Yeah,change your mind and not only change your laptop.Because your mind decides your conducts.
You still think that porn is good .So you always use them.
You should change your mind.That the porn is not good ,is the worst thing in the world to your health.
So, how to?
Study,Learn and Help others like me.
When you see others experience,you will reliaze that how much damage that porn causes.
When you learn more knowledge about addiction and your brain,you will know how to recover.
When you help others,you will strengthen the right thought in your brain.
And finally,your mind is right,everything will be right.
So let us get started from know.Every day ,Every time.
Study hard,learn more and help others!

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the_rebel_angulo said: ↑

I started masturbating when I was 12, and haven't missed a day since. I'm 24 now. I'm in a great relationship, and have a stable job. I masturbate two or three times a day, spending hours on pornography. For the past year, I've spent money on paid pornographic sites, like camgirls, Snapchats, OnlyFans. I estimate I've spent at least $2,500 on this over the past year. It's terrible.
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Hey man you aren't the only one. I've probably spent over 500 on sites such as camgirls and stripchat. One of the models actually ripped me off to another user. So I lost $20. That's a low of loosing money that could of been for food or given to somebody who really needs it. Recently my family members found out that I do online cams and they understood why I do it, but at the same time I'm not really ashamed. Life is difficult in adulthood and its not as easy as people make it seem. To conclude this I say just keep trying to find something that you enjoy and you're passion. Possibly get out side as its helped me relax after a long day at work. Once you harness you're energy you can be unstoppable. Just remember you are the Helm of you're own mind, you have control. If you let that will power reach you're mind.

the_rebel_angulo · Feb 24, 2019

SpiritDriver said: ↑

Hey man you aren't the only one. I've probably spent over 500 on sites such as camgirls and stripchat. One of the models actually ripped me off to another user. So I lost $20. That's a low of loosing money that could of been for food or given to somebody who really needs it. Recently my family members found out that I do online cams and they understood why I do it, but at the same time I'm not really ashamed. Life is difficult in adulthood and its not as easy as people make it seem. To conclude this I say just keep trying to find something that you enjoy and you're passion. Possibly get out side as its helped me relax after a long day at work. Once you harness you're energy you can be unstoppable. Just remember you are the Helm of you're own mind, you have control. If you let that will power reach you're mind.
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Thank you for the support, SpiritDrive! I'm glad I'm not the only one.

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