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Fapstronaut
And here I am again... So hello everyone.
I'm writing in one of these moments of panic, despair and doubts because of my bf's PA. Sometimes I feel like I'm running out strength to face this thing.
I'm struggling with my body image and have obsessive fear of abandonment which doesnt make it easier at all.
He didn't fap for 33 days now, which is obviously a victory. But he's "fishing" almost every f*ckung day, and I know and see what he's searching for: precisely pornstars, cuckolds, gang bangs... I'm literally shaking thinking about this. Blockers keep most pages away but not every single thing. I cant go on like this. I'm so scared and confused I can't function normally.
What should I do? How am I supposed to manage this?
I don't want to share him. I don't share these hardcore fantasies either. But I love my man, I do, more than anything.
I'm lost and hurt.
Please help me understand what happening to us...
I'm writing in one of these moments of panic, despair and doubts because of my bf's PA. Sometimes I feel like I'm running out strength to face this thing.
I'm struggling with my body image and have obsessive fear of abandonment which doesnt make it easier at all.
He didn't fap for 33 days now, which is obviously a victory. But he's "fishing" almost every f*ckung day, and I know and see what he's searching for: precisely pornstars, cuckolds, gang bangs... I'm literally shaking thinking about this. Blockers keep most pages away but not every single thing. I cant go on like this. I'm so scared and confused I can't function normally.
What should I do? How am I supposed to manage this?
I don't want to share him. I don't share these hardcore fantasies either. But I love my man, I do, more than anything.
I'm lost and hurt.
Please help me understand what happening to us...