Partial Success Story

Very short backstory. I am 30 and been PMOing On a average of at least once a day since I was probably around 12. I was separated from my wife for almost 5 months and recently moved back in. Have struggled with P for so long and felt like a zombie and would turn to it as a release from life, when things got tough, I went to it to make me feel better.

So guys, I made it 100 days without PMO. And the night of day 100 my wife and I had some 1on1 time in the bed room finally. Now it wasn’t quite the intimate time I was wanting. We were in a hurry, and she gave me a release via oral sex. I have to write a success story about this because #1 a month ago ago my marriage was in the verge of divorce, partially because of PMO I’m sure and the man it was making me, so Nofap helped me get my marriage back, however the biggest part of getting my marriage back was The Lord. He has helped me and my family so much, we would be lost without him. And #2 the orgasm I had and the sensitivity I had was like nothing I have ever felt. It was almost like I was getting the first oral sex ever. I couldn’t even keep quiet, I was literally moaning and had a very loud orgasm, and obviously a huge release. Today at home we did that two more times, and same thing happened, a amazing loud orgasm from me.

I’m really wondering how I will do with actual sex. I used to have some PE and I’m hoping Nofap helped me with that some. But I had to write in this section as how amazing sexual release with her felt, after being P and M free for over 100 days. Orgasm like I have never felt. I never had PIED symptoms much before, but it did happen in a rare occasion. But I have been extra rock hard on command with her, sometimes even just being around her. Ejaculating before always felt good of course, but this time I felt it rush through my hole body and I couldn’t help but be very vocal. I never want to M again or look at P. Always save it for her. It feels so much better!

I have also had moments and days of increased energy, mood, and overall outlook on life. But I’m still struggling. Some days I have Depression still, dark thoughts, high anxiety and stress, lack of desire and motivation, and feel very fatigued. I’m tired a lot, I was hoping Nofap would help me with this as I have struggled with fatigue and depression since I was a kid. I have had blood tests, thyroid checked, I was in anti depressants when I was a kid. Nothing helped and nothing ever got better really. I don’t sleep very good at night, I wake up a lot also. I was hoping and praying Nofap would help me out here. Sometimes I still want to avoid people and not talk to them, but at the same time I feel lonely.

I have noticed my hair, skin, and eyes look better. I honestly feel like i look more attractive. The times I have felt good it’s been amazing. I’m hoping it will keep getting better and the withdrawals will get fewer in between. I have had days of increased confidence and the desire to talk to people and laugh and joke with them and keep great eye contact. I notice my muscles, when I have enough drive and energy to get to the gym, seem to get pumped more. Like I have unfortunately not been to the gym regularly like I want to, but my muscles still look like that have continually grown. Like they are getting more full.

I want increased energy and motivation though! That’s still my biggest draw back I’m having. Lots of fatigue, decreased mood, lots of stress and anxiety. Sometimes I’m cool as a cucumber and sometimes the smallest things set me off and I’m stressed all day.

Yesterday I was scrolling through the gifs to send my wife of people kissing, trying to be flirty with her. I noticed I was looking on the gifs to find one I really liked, I noticed I started to feel turned on, started getting erect and I felt a rush through my body and head. Few hours after that I started feeling anxiety, stress, increased thirst and In general just like crap. I guess my brain is VERY sensitive right now. And so is my member.

Sexual release with a partner beats your hand and computer or phone any day. Man, I wish I would have stopped Pmo so many years ago. If your looking for ANY excuse besides it being morally wrong to view P and MO, think of how much better life is when your spending your sexual energy with another human. Not even just sexual but I notice it makes me desire my wife so much more even non sexual. Just spending time together, laughing, joking, LISTEING to her. Natural sex Is what we were made to do, not waste it in your hand and wipe it up with Kleenex. Sex inside a marriage was made my God to be enjoyed, not yourself in front of a computer. Quit spending your energy on yourself and put it in into your spouse or significant other.

 

Thank you man. I’m glad I can offer a little encouragement. It’s still a hard journey. But I don’t really think about P very much. I still do sometimes, and still have triggers. Unfortunately I still do notice women in public but I am a lot better than I used to be. I used to walk down grocery aisles I didn’t even need to be in to check out women. Now I see one, look maybe a couple seconds, and then keep walking. I would like to get to where I don’t even notice them at all.

Yes, Gods grace is sufficient and it’s all we need. And we need to look to him for him to meet all our needs and intimacy from God. Seeing beautiful women and wanting to get off is a fleshly desire. God wants us to be pure in thoughts and our actions. I have so many years of damage that I am trying to undo. It’s a long road.

 

I’m glad I can help man! Yes it’s true. Porn kills love and intimacy. The longer you stay away, the more you want a real woman around for love and intimacy. Keep strong man.

 

Thank you man. I wish success and happiness for you too. I pray for the lords will for both of us.