hi, so i’m new to this site and i don’t know if i posted this on the right place or whatever but i just have to get someones opinion on this. I could never tell anyone about it and it makes me feel such an intense shame, to the point of me being suicidal. So, i am a girl, 18 years old and i have had a pregnancy fetish since (i think) childhood. I have understood that this isn’t necessarily considered a bad fetish for many people, but to me, a young girl with really strong morals, it is. anyway, this is the thing i’m torn apart by: when i was 13 i came across a video of a baby moving inside of a pregnant belly. I remember being so intrigued and chocked by this sightseeing and actually ended up masturbating to it. I had never done anything like that before (masturbated) and i don’t even know how i knew what to do or how to do it. After that you can probably guess what happened, i got into watching a really unhealthy amount of videos of pregnant women and anything with pregnancy could turn me on. I realised what i was doing at around 15 and stopped for a while, then i think i relapsed a couple times but after that but not like crazy much. The thing i feel bad for is masturbating to the image of a baby actually moving inside the belly (this happened serveral times after this one aswell). I can promise you that i didn’t get turned on by the baby itself, the thought that it was an actual baby inside didn’t even cross my mind, and that’s why i think i could actually masturbate to the videos in the first place without questioning it. I try to calm myself by saying that i was only 13 years old and really confused and didn’t know anything about this sort of stuff. Again, the thought of the actual baby inside didn’t and has never turned me on, but pregnancy itself did already then i think and this is why i could masturbate to it. I know this is really bad and there is no way around it. But the people on this site has probably seen everything already so my question is, how bad do you think it is?