I was depressed for over a year; I moved to a new country and I couldn’t land a job. I’ve always masturbated but the combo of not meeting new people, not being able to go out because I was broke, and life feeling like a stationary thing just made this habit go into overdrive. One day I was wanking it (sometimes I would use a sock which was not smart) and I remember feeling a sharp sudden pain; I kept on wacking it until I ejaculated and then went to observe the damage. I always had a dark spot on the sensitive skin at the neck of my glans which figured was from wanking it but it never looked wrinkly/dry/stretched; the skin looked rougher than usual and my penis felt sore but I figured it’d heal after a week or two. Also, I’m uncircumcised. Fast forward 2 weeks; it didn’t heal and the same symptoms were still there. Additionally, that dark spot pains every now and again while I’m flaccid. It feels like the skin is too sore for any kind of rubbing action. The wrinkly skin stretches and smoothens out when I’m aroused but I feel two very minor bumps underneath the surface where I have that dark spot which still feels sore. It’s like a lingering tiny pain. Worse, I realized I wasn’t getting erections like I used to (softer head, and I felt like I needed porn to get it up; no random or mind induced erections and this felt like a sudden change). I started back wanking it once a week but then I tried stopping completely after two months because I wanted the injury to heal. I also figured because I wasn’t having intercourse or even dating for the matter, that I had porn induced erectile dysfunction. I went close to two months without wanking it; I noticed i started getting back mind induced and random erections. This culminated in two wet dreams and I ended up relapsing. So I went close to two months without wanking it. I started back wanking for about four months again, meanwhile trying topical creams with vitamin e, coconut oil and shea butter to see if the skin behind my glans would improve in appearance (it hasn’t I think). I recently got employed at a good job and I want to start dating again; i made commitment to not wank though I’ve relapsed twice since (one after 55 days, the other after 23 days); but lets see if I could go up to 90 or more. I need to give up this habit. My real concern is has anyone else had an injury like this. I still have the same symptoms. I believe it could be a bruise or some nerve damage, but the internet ofc has been scaring me with concerns of Nonvenereal sclerosing lymphangitis, tearing buck’s fascia (that I can’t locate the symptoms online for) or peronie’s (I don’t have a bend but those bumps I feel scare me). Thanks for the help, and yes. I will be visiting a doctor about this soon; I didn’t have a doctor in this new country until recently and I was unwilling to go to a random clinic (which may have been stupid).