So I’m always quiet and shy when it comes to socializing. I usually don’t talk too much, because I’m shy, bored, and I couldn’t think of certain kind of topics or ideas to talk about to other people. And sometimes feeling tired in the morning. I’ve been socially awkward since my mid teens. And that’s during the time when I been doing pmo. I remember when I was in high school, I used to be awkwardly quiet in classes, in lunch when I sat at a table with my close friend and some other boys that he talks to, but I didn’t barely talk to the other boys at my table. When I used to run track and cross country as a sport, I would feel uncomfortable talking to some other boys on my team. Especially when talking to a large group of boys, I would feel uncomfortable of having all their eyes on me while talking. I was afraid they were going to judge me to think I’m a weird person. But I certainly do think it would make me more weird to be awkwardly quiet around other people. To this day I probably learned that constantly being socially awkward is not going to help you make any new friends or to be the most interesting or likable person. It can make you more of a boring kind of person. But I still don’t have the energy or confidence to be a sociable person. Is this kind of behavior is caused from constantly masturbating to porn, lack of sleep, or both?