Permanent brain damage - intrusive thoughts

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  1. srmememan

    srmememan Fapstronaut

    I have been dealing with a compulsive PMO habit for about 10 years. When I was younger I was able to go months or weeks without relapse on willpower alone. However I would constantly convince myself "I still have time, I can relapse just once, I'll start for real tomorrow. " This procrastination has made me unsuccessful in ever breaking the habit.

    In the past two years my compulsion intensified as I discovered a very addictive "genre" of sexually explicit material. These past years I've found it literally impossible to go past a single week due to the sheer strength of the urges. It is no longer a matter of procrastination but a matter of simply being unable to resist.

    Instead of resisting the urges I decided to simply eliminate them. I've fasted, done strenuous diets, meditated, exercised, socialized. Nothing has worked. Like clockwork, no matter where I am or what I'm doing, at the one week mark I'll be bombarded by humiliating intrusive thoughts.

    I've read that you bond to your sexual experiences. I'm fairly certain that I've bonded to PMO for so long as to have given myself permanent brain damage. I'm not certain that recovery is even possible at this point.

    I can't believe obscenity is legal to such an extent in the west. If I had been raised in a more "puritanical" environment I'm sure things would be different. People are very much willfully ignorant of the effects of this addiction and the difficulty of recovering from it.
  2. SequinHistory

    SequinHistory Fapstronaut

    I’m new to all of this, but I think the biggest step you can take in dealing with your addiction is understanding the root cause. Every porn addict has an underlying reason for their addiction, whether it’s self-esteem issues, a lack of structure in their lived, childhood trauma etc. You need to take a long look at yourself in the mirror and figure out why this has taken control. Therapy or counselling would probably be beneficial but if you can’t afford it (I can’t, so I know how that feels), there are hundreds of books out there that could help. You need to take back control of your life. Hope this helps!
  3. JestfulPotion57115

    JestfulPotion57115 Fapstronaut

    The brain is a muscle my friend. Even the worst addict can recover and be normal again
  4. Jeremi

    Jeremi Fapstronaut

    Instead of trying to eliminate the thoughts, you may want to let them simply be there. Acknowledge that you have these thoughts, that they are not of your control, that you are okay with that. Soon they will leave just as quickly as they come to you. Peace in mind, my friend.
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  5. hollyman

    hollyman Fapstronaut

    so u bond to become porn zombie huh?

    "I've fasted, done strenuous diets, meditated, exercised, socialized"

    that too much bro, u got to chill that servo bro

    imagine you want to exercise at the gym, before that you eat 10 banana's, Creatine, whey, 5 yolk eggs, milk, a galon of water, Red Bull and boiled chicken, can you exercise properly ???? NO OFC U WILL PUKE !!!! BEFORE U START

    im >10 years addicted to porn too dont became a victim of fate please

    u must find a strategies to beat that demon if its fail, EVALUATE !!! and try again

    If u want pm me and we talk more personally


    think about it
  6. Hello there , you should be sure that neurplasticity is your best friend , and the recent studies showed that you can rebuild new neuropathways so the elder one shrink , they will not disappear but will be very weak , as a start to thouse thoughts you have to be very agressive twoard them , do not let them enter your heart , your brain is goint to convince you that it is your nature , but no it is only a result of an addiction , you have to strenghthen the good side and be convinced that you were born healthy and without any of these trash's ideas , it is the environment and the conditionning during these year of consumption who create this new tendancy , keep strong !
  7. En?gma

    En?gma Fapstronaut

    It can be possible that you just have a lack of volition? In the good sense i mean..maybe you don't want to face the possible? I was also scary about it a little bit.

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