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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Gavalar09, Nov 15, 2018.

  1. Gavalar09

    Gavalar09 Fapstronaut

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    I need the help of any seriously long term rebooters.
    I'm freaking out
    All I see is how people are getting morning wood yet I'm 219 days in now and still struggling to get morning wood.
    Feel like I've hit another major flatline out of nowhere.
    I've orgasmed during sex a bunch of times over the last 4 months yet now I'm impotent and haven't even looked at porn!
    I don't understand.
    I'm about ready to give up on just about everything
     
  2. Stay strong Brother!

    I'm also over 200 days in and I've had 5 major flatlines during this time (counting in this current one). I guess this is how some of us have to roll to be fully cured. It's also worth mentioning that men are not robots and we also have these no-mood-for-sex periods as all people do and it's completely normal.

    I used to panic because I used to be horny as hell previously and now in NoFap my sex drive is way lower than I've got used to. I guess my sex drive is returning to normal level now that I've ditched porn, excessive masturbation and stopped obsessing about sex.

    I hope this helps Bro. You're definitely not alone with this one.

    - Mike
     
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  3. it can take over a year for some depending on the level on addiction, dont give up.
     
  4. DucksInARow

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    Experiment with no orgasm. Worked for me
     
  5. Anonymous86

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    Can you stop having sex?
     
  6. Fapenstein

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    This is not gonna be easy brother. I'm also feel like I'm permanently broken as well. I've been doing PMO for 30yrs. I'll be 40 and I don't even really care to have sex. I have zero desire for porn. I cant even stand looking at it anymore. I've "tested" myself recently and I get disgusted at the thought of watching it. I was a hardcore addict for 30yrs. Likely more hardcore then most and now since been kinda porn free and MO free for months now. I've lost count.. I'm about 6 or 7 months in with 1 relapse a few months back. I've kinda just accepted I'm broken. I'm seeing this girl and I cant even stay hard long enough to get it in (Shes a virgin) I know it's weird. Shes a 30yr old virgin. She smells wonderful and is smoking hot, I'm totally lucky but shes beyond tight and it takes a struggle to get inside. I've never been fully in because of the pain for her but I die out after some time. It suck real bad. I may have to come clean and let her go be with someone who can truly give her what she wants because I feel useless to her sometimes. She is totally in love with me and I'm broken after years of abuse. Im not mad or angry at anyone or my life. This is what I get for not having control.
     
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  7. Davindey2

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    Whoa whoa whoa. @Fapenstein: you guys are together and seems to me sex might not be your girl’s #1 thing she looks for in a relationship considering she hasn’t had any yet. You guys can figure that part out eventually, why the rush? (Can she get satisfaction some other way aside from penetration while you figure this out? We’ve got more tools at our disposal than just out dicks.) In the meantime maybe try to focus on the things that have gotten you two to the point where you’re at now. I have faith in you man, you aren’t permanently broken.

    @Gavalar09: I’m certainly not a long term rebooter like who you are looking for. Hell, this is my first post on this forum. But I am 2 days into committing to living a new lifestyle that this community promotes, and it hurts to see anyone considering giving up on something so meaningful. Looking forward to getting to 219 days like you, and wish you the best. Sending positivity you’re way, you are not alone!
     
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  8. Fapenstein

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    Brother I appreciate the feedback. Weird thing happened just now. We were on whatsApp, facetime. Well things got heavy and she wanted me to M and she was playing with herself, it was so hot. She was begging me to shoot my load after she did. I was literally stone hard for over an hour. I did take my raw garlic before bed (minced and washed down with water or milk) so maybe that helped. I was cast iron for almost over an hour with her on cam. Funny thing is that P hasn't gotten me aroused in a long time so I know it's not the messing around on facetime. In any event, it was great to in control of it for an hour without the scare of his deflating. This flatline thing is so hard it gauge
     
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  9. overclocked

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    I believe it took 2 years for me to achieve morning wood and it's still improving in consistency.

    Eventually I started dating and my erections were good enough for sex but they weren't what they could have been and I also had bad hangovers and experienced chaser effects after most ejaculations. So now I stepped back from the dating scene to heal some more doing hardmode no PMO, which is the third year of rebooting for me.
    Crazy, right? But worth it. If it took twice as long, I would still do it. The reward is just so great: honor and the ability to make love. Nothing should stand in your way to achieve these things.
     
  10. Gavalar09

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    I just fear it's going to kill my relationship if I can't get an erection.
    It's sucks that I seemed to recover only to be back in flatline!!
    I have zero libido right now once again...
     
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  11. Fapenstein

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    Things will get better. Your biggest enemy is time. You cant correct 10 or 20yrs of addiction in a couple months.
     
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  12. Two years of consistent no PMO or relapsed in between?
     
  13. mindright

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    What is your lifestyle choices not just staying away from PMO? What is your diet do you go to the gym?
     
  14. Gavalar09

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    No alcohol, rarely eat junk food, protein diet, so lean meats and veg, rice, potatoes, do consume coffee but only 2 cups a day, mainly drink decaff, play football once a week for 2 hours
     
  15. mindright

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    Football once a week for 2 hours? Bro no disrespect I don't see the most basic fluid known to man in what you have mentioned Water? You have a good diet but exercise only once a week? I think you need to step it up because recovery is mind, body and soul.
     
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  16. overclocked

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    Sorry for late response. There were a few relapses, usually just MO or edging.
     
  17. Ra's Al Ghul

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    Dam. Thats one of the saddest stories I ever heard. Hope you can start to recover.
     

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