PIED and DE Cured (hopefully) After 5 Months.

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Mr. Power, Jan 6, 2016.

  1. Mr. Power

    Mr. Power New Fapstronaut

    Hey guys, so I've been a lurker for the past 5 months and thought I would contribute since things seemed to have worked out for me, at least so far, and reading success stories played a huge role in getting me through some pretty tough times. I'll give you some background but not too many details to preserve my anonymity. I'm 37, was raised an Evangelical Christian with all the baggage that comes with it, lost my virginity in my mid-20s with a girl that was awesome, but I knew I probably wasn't going to marry. We dated for year and had amazing sexual chemistry, no issues at all with PIED or DE (had never even heard of such things), only had sex with a condom, couldn't even imagine how quickly I would come if I didn't, and things were fine. I figured I lost my virginity late, but no worries, I could play catch up. Well, things didn't quite work out that way, had lots of issues with guilt from the break up, struggles with my faith, not being great with girls, a lot of the stuff posted by other folks. In any event, porn was a steady companion and in the Christian world, even though porn is bad, premarital sex is worse, so I figured things were still net positive right? Well, fast forward 10 years later, I had sex with two women in that span, both were one night stands (one was probably a prostitute), was able to penetrate, but couldn't finish with either, messed around with a few other women but with mixed results and I always had excuses (nerves, alcohol, etc.). Anyway, I finally get in a long term relationship with someone I love and want to marry, I'm able to get off with oral sex and manually (with difficulty), but when it came to PIV, the first time, I couldn't feel anything and then things basically came off the wheels after that, i.e., pretty severe PIED every time thereafter.

    Of course I freak out, sought out help from the Internet and came across the entire nofap universe. All these stories were so similar to my situation. Although I didn't have the Internet growing up or through college even (I went to college right as it was being rolled out, thank God), for at least the past 10 years I was PMOing heavily, some weeks every single day, 1-3 hour long sessions, multiple tabs, increasingly bizarre and shocking stuff, and all the while, not really dating much and virtually no sexual activity with real women. Reading the nofap stuff and the stories on this website and others was like having my mind blown, I could relate with so many of the stories I was reading.

    Not to brag, but I'm a pretty successful guy, from the outside, I have everything together, but PIED devastated me. I felt completely emasculated, felt like a loser, thought maybe I was gay, felt betrayed by God, you guys know the drill. The one thing that I do have going for me though, is that once I make up my mind to do something, I'm committed 100%, I don't half-ass anything. Literally the day I read this stuff, I stopped all PMO. Just a few days in, I experienced the infamous flatline, on schedule and exactly as everyone described, shrinking lifeless penis, zero libido, lethargy, depression. But it totally helped to know what it was and that it would eventually pass. And it did, after about 2 months.

    So it has been almost 5 months now since I have seen any Internet porn. Over this period of time, I have masturbated to orgasm a total of 3 times, with lube and as light a touch as I could. I also tried to reboot with my partner, which was probably the most painful part. Initially, she was totally confused, but after talking it through with her, she was very understanding. So we just tried and tried and kept trying, usually about once a week, sometimes I was so dejected that we didn't try again for several weeks. I would always make sure to service her, but after 3 months, I still didn't exhibit any improvement at all and inside I was really close to losing it.

    But here's the thing, about a month and a half ago, things just started working again. I was able to get an erection pretty much every time we tried, which was averaging once a week. But now my problem was DE. Once in a while, things would work, but only in a specific position, and still very rarely. Finally, I bought the Man1 Man Oil, I can't tell if it was that or just more time passing, but the past 4 times we had sex, I was able to maintain my erection and come with no issues. In fact, the last time was after half a bottle of wine and two beers, and traditionally, any alcohol in my system would cause ED or at least DE. I wasn't able to get off even watching porn after having a few drinks. That was a milestone in my book.

    So that's where I'm at, I wanted to post this so that people could read it and know that there is hope if you stick to the program, and at a minimum, you really need to wait at least 3-6 months. Even if you think you aren't making any progress, the reality is, your brain is making changes, and one day, things are are just going to work. Now, I'll just caveat this with saying that I think there probably are folks on here that need special help, either medical or psychological, and of course you should get checked out for those kinds of things. But if you are otherwise physically healthy, relatively social, consume a lot of porn and happen to have PIED or DE, well, it's a no brainer right. Good luck to everyone, I'll hang around for a bit in case anyone has any questions for me.
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  2. Rav70

    Rav70 Fapstronaut

    Inspiring post!
  3. Engedi1

    Engedi1 Fapstronaut

    Awesome post. I am 38 and have been a lifelong Christian and just got divorced after 15 years of marriage. I have realized like a ton of bricks falling out of the sky that I have PIED. Not 100%, but an encounter with a real woman over new years (my first in a year since my divorce) showed me that I have a serious problem as I was way into it and couldn't maintain a good erection. Not exactly good for the ego or confidence after the shattering experience of the divorce. And then a friend said to check this site our and I realized it has been my porn issue, 2 or 3 x per day for the last few years that has been the problem. It is killling me at work, at home and ruining my chances of finding happiness with any real woman. I am so sick of this shit, and like you am 100% determined to change this. I am 5 days and am NOT feeling the flatline. More like I am feeling like my genitals are waking up after being asleep. I don't know how long it will take to fix this problem, but it doesn't matter it is a year or a month I ain't going back. I am in NO hurry to get a girlfriend either, as my life just doesn't have room for it right now, so I guess I am doing it hard style by default. Congrats bro and thanks for sharing, it is encouraging.
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  4. Engedi1

    Engedi1 Fapstronaut

    A honestly, the church demonizes those who have pre marital sex and struggle with porn WAY too much. If they were more open and accepting and less judgey about it, less people would get caught up with it IMHO.
  5. OscarBoy

    OscarBoy Fapstronaut

    Really awesome post! There's been times where I've been just plain scared and stories like these help out. I've felt completely recovered from PIED, only to have it come back 10 fold weeks later. It's a constant cycle it feels like, but as you said there's no way I'm going back to porn again!
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  6. AD_UK

    AD_UK Fapstronaut

    Your success story is exactly what I needed to see today. I'm on day 116 and am in almost the same position you were in (issues with partner etc.) and today I feel like nothing is going to work ever. So in all seriousness I thank you so much for posting this success story, you've re-inspired me!

    Congrats on your success, I know exactly how difficult your journey has been thus far and I wish you all the luck in the future man.
  7. Jmb

    Jmb Fapstronaut

    I needed to see this . 3 weeks in and no sign of life yet.
  8. Ikindaknew

    Ikindaknew Fapstronaut

    I had slight PIED issues that already went away. Apparently, if you started MO'ing or PMO'ing BEFORE the high-speed internet porn era, you can heal quicker.
    The younger generation, born with a mouse in keyboard in their hands, with high-speed modern porn will have more issues to heal PIED issues.
  9. TheFutureMe

    TheFutureMe Fapstronaut

    Inspiring post, thanks for sharing your story. It's good to see people fighting to get their grip on life back, and getting results, milestones and eventually recovery.

    I'm too new to the community to offer any further insight, all I can say is how useful these success stories are to us who start out on a journey that's know for its hiccups.

    Thanks again
  10. Mr. Power

    Mr. Power New Fapstronaut

    Hey guys, I feel the need to post an update with a warning. So it looks like I posted this in January 2016 and it's now the end of August 2016. Things were pretty good for a few months after that initial post, but I think at least by March 2016, I relapsed and in the worst possible way. I started looking at porn again but without MOing. So I would just surf, sometimes several times a day, but without masturbating. I didn't realize this was a problem until after the fact. I think I did this for at least 4-6 weeks because when we went on vacation in April, the PIED came back. Totally devastating. I felt like I had to start all over again and I really did. Went cold turkey again. But it literally took another 4 full months to recover. I'm writing this now because the past 3-4 sessions with my wife were fine again, but up until about a month ago, it was full blown PIED. I didn't have the same flat line symptoms this time (i.e., I didn't have a noticeable drop in libido and I had morning wood every day), but every time we tried to have sex, I couldn't get it up. It was also the same progression, once I was able to get an erection again, I had DE. After a few weeks of DE, sensitivity came back and (hopefully) things are good again. I wanted to post this update because I had no idea that just looking at porn periodically again without MOing would literally set me back to square one. So seriously guys, this was almost an accidentally experiment here, it is clear to me now that at least for some people you can't ever go back to watching porn again without risking full blown PIED coming back and erasing all your progress. Hope this helps.
  11. g2stop

    g2stop Fapstronaut

    Thanks for this. What kind of porn set you back? Most adverts have some form of sexual stimulation as does TVs, YouTube, movies etc. Are these equally or in anyway harmful?

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