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Hi all
I'm suffering with what I think is an extreme form of PIED with some weird particulars and need some advice.
I've been an extreme porn addict for 10 years now, and am in my late 20s having never had sex. The most I have masturbated in any given day to porn is 3 times, but on average it has been mostly once a day (evening or morning).
It is either masturbating to extreme pornography or effectively reading extreme erotica.
I have now, for years, known I cannot maintain an erection or often even get one to thoughts of normal sex. It waxes and wanes. Sometimes I can climax to thoughts of normal sex, but it is rare if ever that I do a complete four-stage arousal cycle to thoughts or even videos of normal sex.
I also struggle immensely with maintaining an erection and especially achieving climax if I am not lying down on my back, and in fact, even having the sheets off sometimes affects it.
Standing is sort of doable, but in a sort of all fours position hunched over, my body simply wont react and I'm just pulling on skin for nothing.
I do suffer from depression, and it is linked to this. I am not on anti-depressants (nor ever have been). I am not very athletic but am in no way overweight, dont smoke or drink really.
Obviously I have extreme anxiety about getting into sexual situations, in part because Im afraid of not being able to get an erection for sex or even oral.
This is, at this point, ruining my life and makes me fee suicidal. I have done nofap before, having done two month streaks, but improvement was minimal in terms of what I could discern, without actually having sex.
Having researched medicinal treatment for ED, I was disappointed to find out it doesn't actually cause erections like in the movies, so if your problem is psychological there just is no pill out there.
If anyone has dealt with similar issues, I'd really appreciate your advice. I'm looking to make opportunities for sex to happen now but I feel like I need the confidence to go into it knowing I'm not going to humiliate myself.
I have not looked at any porn whatsoever since Thursday, but did masturbate today with much hardship, trying various positions (I eventually came standing up as I forced myself to). The whole difficulty while not lying down thing is really scaring me as its not the standard position for sex.
Anything you got, behavioural, medicinal, nutritional, etc. I've toyed with various ideas (that given how things are I'd be better paying an escort for my first time to remove the pressure, or that I should nofap while only looking at normal porn habitually, or nofap for an extended period then watch normal porn and see what happens, or continue fapping but do not allow myself to climax while lying down), I'm not sure.
Thanks in advance.
I'm suffering with what I think is an extreme form of PIED with some weird particulars and need some advice.
I've been an extreme porn addict for 10 years now, and am in my late 20s having never had sex. The most I have masturbated in any given day to porn is 3 times, but on average it has been mostly once a day (evening or morning).
It is either masturbating to extreme pornography or effectively reading extreme erotica.
I have now, for years, known I cannot maintain an erection or often even get one to thoughts of normal sex. It waxes and wanes. Sometimes I can climax to thoughts of normal sex, but it is rare if ever that I do a complete four-stage arousal cycle to thoughts or even videos of normal sex.
I also struggle immensely with maintaining an erection and especially achieving climax if I am not lying down on my back, and in fact, even having the sheets off sometimes affects it.
Standing is sort of doable, but in a sort of all fours position hunched over, my body simply wont react and I'm just pulling on skin for nothing.
I do suffer from depression, and it is linked to this. I am not on anti-depressants (nor ever have been). I am not very athletic but am in no way overweight, dont smoke or drink really.
Obviously I have extreme anxiety about getting into sexual situations, in part because Im afraid of not being able to get an erection for sex or even oral.
This is, at this point, ruining my life and makes me fee suicidal. I have done nofap before, having done two month streaks, but improvement was minimal in terms of what I could discern, without actually having sex.
Having researched medicinal treatment for ED, I was disappointed to find out it doesn't actually cause erections like in the movies, so if your problem is psychological there just is no pill out there.
If anyone has dealt with similar issues, I'd really appreciate your advice. I'm looking to make opportunities for sex to happen now but I feel like I need the confidence to go into it knowing I'm not going to humiliate myself.
I have not looked at any porn whatsoever since Thursday, but did masturbate today with much hardship, trying various positions (I eventually came standing up as I forced myself to). The whole difficulty while not lying down thing is really scaring me as its not the standard position for sex.
Anything you got, behavioural, medicinal, nutritional, etc. I've toyed with various ideas (that given how things are I'd be better paying an escort for my first time to remove the pressure, or that I should nofap while only looking at normal porn habitually, or nofap for an extended period then watch normal porn and see what happens, or continue fapping but do not allow myself to climax while lying down), I'm not sure.
Thanks in advance.