I started pmo about 12 years old. Now i am 34. At my 31 i first discovered i have pied when i first time encountered sex with my gf. My penis was lifeless. Then i stated google and find Nowa Church's Video in youtube. That day was devastating. I cried whole night. And i was little bit happy that finally i found my problem..I started reboot - 90 days pmo free session.. I thought its very easy but i was wrong withdrawal symptoms send back me to relapse again and again..After 2 years of fighting almost 125 relapses finally i successfully rebooted 90 days milepost..After that the flateline hit..it was easy because i haven’t any urges for porn..And my habit of porn watching has gone..but depression and emptyness, emotional numbness, low motivation kill the joy of success... About 1 year of flateline i tried sex with my new gf..i successful to perform only oral and doggy style sex..She is very cooperative and i told her everything before sex which helped me reduce performance engity. Now after one week i almost recovered..I sex with her 12 times..my erection is good..Only thought of her my libido and erection come back..her smile and picture can arousing me..thanks god..A ton of heavy weight lifted from my chest. I almost recovered.. Some issue still there i guess.
Mistakes of me in Rebooting :
1. I thought its very easy.. Its easy but not that easy..urges and cues hit like train..
2. I dont study a lot..only few video and started my journey..which lead to a relapse and edging.. I have no idea of adging.
3. Stop journaling.
4. I tried to sex forcefully which cause frustration and gradually to relapse.
5. Not stop watching social media and youtube hot picture and video.
6.Solo sex i thought it was not a big deal.. But cause me a couple relapses
What makes me successful.
1. Believe. I believed one day i will recover.
2. Goal setting. I set my first priority of goals is pied recovery. I wrote the whole process. And work on it.
3. Study. I study about pied and pied recovery daily. Online forum or in youtube video..Gary Willson, Gabe dim, Nowa church, Scandinavian bub help a lot..thanks guys..i even didnt known what happened to me withot your article.
Thanks Guys.. Keep hope..Every pied will recovered even worst one.. Just follow the process.. It takes time.Good luck.God bless you.
Sorry for my English. Its not my native language.
Mistakes of me in Rebooting :
1. I thought its very easy.. Its easy but not that easy..urges and cues hit like train..
2. I dont study a lot..only few video and started my journey..which lead to a relapse and edging.. I have no idea of adging.
3. Stop journaling.
4. I tried to sex forcefully which cause frustration and gradually to relapse.
5. Not stop watching social media and youtube hot picture and video.
6.Solo sex i thought it was not a big deal.. But cause me a couple relapses
What makes me successful.
1. Believe. I believed one day i will recover.
2. Goal setting. I set my first priority of goals is pied recovery. I wrote the whole process. And work on it.
3. Study. I study about pied and pied recovery daily. Online forum or in youtube video..Gary Willson, Gabe dim, Nowa church, Scandinavian bub help a lot..thanks guys..i even didnt known what happened to me withot your article.
Thanks Guys.. Keep hope..Every pied will recovered even worst one.. Just follow the process.. It takes time.Good luck.God bless you.
Sorry for my English. Its not my native language.