Please answer. Really worried.

Hi. I am on day 19 of nofap. I am not dating and i am really bad with girls. People say i am good looking and years back alot of girls use to approach me and i use to date girls but now its been 3 or 4 years that i have been single. My mind is really fucked up thanks to porn.

I have female friends who are attractive and my mind has become so dirty that i want to have sex with them, with every female that i talk to or even see. I really respect women but now all i see is me having sex with them. When i see their lips i imagine kissing them, when i sit with them i cant stop looking at their boobs and imagining kissing them, when they walk ahead of me i cant stop looking at their ass and thinking to have it, when they sit close to me and touch me just like friends do, i get horny and i get erections, while texting i just want to talk dirty with them.

My friends girlfriend was sitting with me really close this one time and her hand was placed in my thigh and my penis erected and many times things like this has happened. In class i cant hear a word that my teacher says, all i see is that i am having sex with her, she is really hot, same is with doctors and everyone else. Attractive women are all milfs for me, they get me horny like hell.

What should i do? Should i avoid ladies all together and stay away from them? I really hate my self for being this dirty. Darn you porn and all those porn where they fuck doctors, teachers, salesgirls, massuse, landlords, friends and almost everyone. Its all brainwashing and i dont know how is porn legal. Drugs are nothing in front of porn i think.

 

My eye contact has become zero. I cant even make eye contact with male. That is also bcz of porn i think. With female everything seduces me, i cant make eye contact so i look at their mouth while talking and i get seduced by their lips then i try to look somwhere else and start swaeting. When they are talking to someone else i really try to look somewhere else but endup looking at their boobs and at home i try really hard not to think but still endup thinking about having sex when they text, call or upload a picture or something.