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Please bear with me, sharing very private thoughts

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by Hold the Line, Jul 31, 2021.

  1. Hold the Line

    Hold the Line Fapstronaut

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    Thoughts i'm not happy that i have, but it's somewhat good when they appear, because they show me how bad my situation is and give me motivation to hang on and not relapse.
    It's not easy for me to share this because it's twisted and shows me as very bad
    My brother got married couple days ago and we met with the bride's family at the event.
    A fairly large portion of the time i only though about the bride's younger 14 year old sister and how much i want to %^&* her... she kept looking at me and it made me feel very awkward, every time i caught her looking at ME and didn't know what to do to make it stop.
    I'm 22 years old, luckily i'm a very rational person and would never try anything stupid with a 14 year old, especially when it's now my sister in-law, if that's how it's called.
    She has another 28 year old sister and all i can think is like, wow she's so $%^&ing hot...
    And a fair portion of time is spent glaring at their bodies like a baboon, i try to avoid it as much as possible, it happens quite often with women that i inspect their body and imagine sick thought with them, i'm ashamed to tell you that younger girls also do it for me...
    like even 13-12 year old if they look good...
    I don't know if it's a mental disorder or that it's quite common, because i'm not quite sure if it's ''cureable'', i think it's just something i need to bear, and accept that it's wrong and won't happen.
    These are my personal thoughts, i don't controll them so please don't go hard on me, i would like to know if anyone feels like me.

    Doing nofap for about 10 months, currently at a 36 day streak no PMO, about 70-80ish days no P.
     
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  2. Your innerself consider all this not good and you dont accept this behavior. Its a good sign. There are many people who do bad things. But you know its a bad thing..thats good and hopeful
     
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  3. BrighterFuture

    BrighterFuture Fapstronaut

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    because of porn the things we think about never make sense, I used look at people in my family, and messed up thoughts would kick like you, though I didn't allow it go on for too long as swimming in your mind never helps when you're addicted, keep it strong brother, those feeling are just temporary.
     
  4. PrioritySystem

    PrioritySystem Fapstronaut

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    A 14 year old girl is staring at you, it happens, they are already biologically fertile and they are looking at boys. It is not strange or scary.

    Your body is biologically programmed to make babies. A 12 year old girl is in some cases already biologically fertile so it’s a basic instinct. Don’t panic man. You will notice that if you do talk to that 14 year old girl, it’s going to feel weird and you won’t get on the same level. If you just take it easy and do your thing, nothing bad is going to happen
     
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  5. TimeToQuitNow

    TimeToQuitNow Fapstronaut

    Do these thoughts come out of the fact that their your sister-in-laws or the fact that they are attractive? Like if a random pretty 14 or 28 year old looked at you would you feel the same way?
     
  6. Hold the Line

    Hold the Line Fapstronaut

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    The family relations has nothing to do with it, i just find them attractive.
     
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  7. TimeToQuitNow

    TimeToQuitNow Fapstronaut

    Then I think it's normal to feel attracted to pretty girls. Don't stress yourself to much about this
     
  8. Black heads

    Black heads Fapstronaut

    I tell my problem,frankly..And it's very shy to say..
    I am also experiencing like this. I am attracted to a women of age nearly 28-30..But my age is 18-22..That women is my aunty(my mom's elder brother's wife).
    She has two sons.Elder one's age is around 8 years old.Younger one's age is around 6 years old.Her husband(my mom's brother) has died few years ago.Even at their marriage time also, I was attracted to her. Now also she is attractive to my eyes.when I see her,sexual arousal come to my mind,and thoughts like sex with her..
    Every day I think about her as nude hot girl. I can't control this thoughts.In my brain, thoughts like (if I get a chance,I will sex with her and anal play with her and touch her whole body and some stupid thoughts) come frequently. But I am trying to control this. But still I am experiencing this bad thoughts.
     
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  9. Black heads

    Black heads Fapstronaut

    @Hold the Line My problem is worse than yours.
    And I have this problem for past 2 years.
    Every night, before going to sleep In my bed, I think about her..
     
  10. TimeToQuitNow

    TimeToQuitNow Fapstronaut

    A thought is just a thought. Just try to control yourself
     
  11. A women is a women, regardless of age. What you find attractive and what society considers normal is irrelevant. You are being blinded by lust, by sex attraction, nothing wrong with it... Its basic nature of man.

    When you start nofap seriously, deeply rooted desires stemming from lust come up that were burried deep within your being. This may be attraction to younger girls, transwomen, other men, using butt plugs, crossdressing, animals, ... or other "taboo" stuff. These are all a test. Resist them. The universe is testing your determination for resisting stuff that are "new, exciting, taboo". Rise above it.
     
  12. iamShinra

    iamShinra Fapstronaut

    It's fine to feel this way man! It's not a disorder or something. During nofap the libido sometimes goes to peak. I'm going through the same phase as well, but it's all going to be fine. Keep Going!
     
  13. iamShinra

    iamShinra Fapstronaut

    True
     

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