Please don’t drink too much alcohol, will cause a relapse

Hey,

I was on a 2 month free porn streak until yesterday night due to alcohol.
I was drinking and playing ps4 with some friends when I started to feel very dizzy, suddenly I got triggered by some Tik toks from very hot women (can’t have that app, already deleted it) and just unblocked all porn pages and began with the relapse, once I relapsed I felt good actually, the dopamine released got me feeling very relaxed and I ended up sleeping within the next 20 minutes.
Couldn’t even sleep for 5 hours straight, I woke up feeling like a piece of shit, my hearth was hurting so bad for the mistake I made and I just felt so embarrased that I couldn’t fall asleep again. I though I was done with the porn urges at that point, but I was feeling soooo bad that I just went to pornhub again because of the pain I was into to feel a little better, didn’t masturbate or anything but I did watch some videos.

I was starting to feel a lot of benefits been only free P, it is harder for me the MO since I can’t even reach 9 days but I have to deal again with this porn urges since that is what fucks up your brain.